OMG blogger changed it's layout,hate this man. Yeah,I HATE CHANGES.
Screwed up MYE. I'm serious. Spent so much time on Emaths and neglected physics.
In the end my emaths also screwed up. I swear all the teachers want us to die before O levels, all the exam questions are nuts. 

It's like my life only revolve around studies and studies. No life. :( 
I miss those times where I can go out when as I wished and I didn't take studies so .. seriously.

Like I lost a part of myself and the thing is,I don't even know how I can find that part back again.It's like I'm injected with worries and depression and I don't know how to embrace the little things in life again. Oh no.

 today i dream of you and cried. memories became vague,time heals. but you gave me too much to remember.

Faith>fear.

Seeking faith.

" There's always gonna be another mountain, I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes we have to lose. Ain't about but how fast you get there,ain't about what's on the other side.It's the climb."

-The Climb

Same old tired lonely place everyday. I really cannot wait to graduate.

I wonder of you had remembered your promise to me, or was it a memory so vague and distant now?

Strength and faith, it's hard to hold on when you have nothing left at times. Endure.

Passion is what drives us!

My last performance for the school was a glorious one. The most major and worthy one.

It's the 50th anniversary concert tomorrow.
Can't believe all these rehearsals are coming to an end.There are times when I dreaded the rehearsals,times when I was filled with anticipation and actually looked forward to rehearsals as it was a getaway from studies,times when I resented myself for volunteering to be in the concert,times when I felt so lonely during CCA without those people who once made me feel whole.
Pep talks we got,scoldings we endured,the frustration we had when we were made to repeat the same scene over and over again. Surviving late nights just to complete homework and revise for tests.

Memories indeed.

'' without struggles,there is no progress'' Yeah I am struggling and enduring. But I will survive. It has really been a tough week for me. CCA on Monday,Wednesday and Friday. Tuition on Tuesday,Thursday and Saturday. Concert tomorrow and extra lessons on Monday which is supposing a holiday.

Had Amaths tuition today and went to AMK with Jiawen to buy a birthday gift.Totally had no mood to study today,yeah I feel guilty but there's nothing I can do about it.

6 more months to turning sixteen.
6 months and 1 day to O levels.
7 more months to graduation night.

Keep moving on.

I will endure and survive. Even though the route may seemed so far and tedious,but I'm going to make it no matter what.

I have to.

“I want to taste and glory in each day, and never be afraid to experience pain; and never shut myself up in a numb core of nonfeeling, or stop questioning and criticizing life and take the easy way out. To learn and think: to think and live; to live and learn: this always, with new insight, new understanding, and new love.”
― Sylvia Plath


How long can these strength last?

Why am I so beautiful...
HAHAHAHAHA probably gonna get judged about how shameless and disgusting I am but it's okay, I happy can alr.
Zaidi tweets about how beautiful he is everyday and I am very supportive of that.

Typical Thursday but I did not feel tired somehow,I wonder why.
Was supposed to met JJ at 7-11 at 6.45pm but I was late.
That guy lack patience uh, 3 minutes before our meet up timing already call me and I was late and he send me a lot of :((.
It was pretty funny when I walked towards the bus stop as both YX and JJ were waiting for me and they were standing beside each other but I doubt they knew they were waiting for the same person. YX was like huh??? when I walked towards JJ and handed him the ticket.

Tuition was alright but I hate that insecure feeling I get when I do physics. It's like I completely have no knowledge of physics and I'm going to war without my soldiers backing me up.

Oh, Mr Kumar printed my situational writing for the class to read. I'm kinda happy cause I got recognition for the efforts I put in finally. And the essay I wrote entitled Addiction which I wrote about cutting also got pretty good marks. To the extent that Mr Kumar thought I copied it from the internet LOL.

I just need to maintain my standards for my composition and situational writing. Improve on my summary and comprehension and I might score distinction for English!! It's difficult but I'm going to try. Why poly cannot use HCL as L1? :( Forget it, my higher chinese isn't that powerful too.

Bye gonna sleep. Would have skipped school if not for Emaths. Meh.

Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing in life either,no direction ; just aimless wandering.

I need to learn how to have more faith and confidence in myself and.. how to live without anxiety and fear all the time. Life isn't that bad actually. Just that I like to magnify all the bad things that happen to me.

Oh, it's 12:17am. Happy 13th birthday to my younger brother. Officially a teenager. Can't believe I'm turning 16 in 6 months time too. Don't really look forward to my birthday this year because O levels is just a day away.

O levels isn't scary. It's the after effects that's scary. Very soon, all of us will have to say goodbye and continue our own path in life. Sigh..

我昨晚又失眠了。As though sleeping late wasn't bad enough,I was insomniac last night. Those thoughts kept on racing through my mind and no matter how I begged for it to stop, it wouldn't. It mercilessly ran and ran. Paralyzing me with fear. Those meaningless thoughts killed me inside.

Sigh, yet again.

Good friday indeed.

Hello,this is LOW ZHI LING1996 the very cute girl blogging.


Right now I'm waiting for my photos to upload but it's taking ages due to my editing. :(
Today I am supposed to meet JianXing at 11.30am but I only got to bathe at 11.10am cause my dad was using the toilet.Yes,big business.I actually woke up at 10am even though I slept late last night . And then I procrastinate.. like usual LOL.

The main purpose of going out today is actually to shop for a new school bag for JianXing and a new pair of school shoes for me. The soles of my previous pair of school shoes were worn out and it was pretty amusing actually.

In the end, I got myself a pair of school shoes from Cotton On and so did JianXing but he got himself a pair of gray sports shoes. 2 pairs for $15 each.

We went to pepper lunch for lunch! It's my first time LOL and I didn't know we have to mix everything and so some of my rice went chaoda. :(


I also had chocolate nuts icecream there and it was pretty amazing as well. Drink + Icecream + food = $12.40 , quite value for money I supposed. We saw many people today which includes 2 relief teachers,May Chua (LOL) and one mediacorp artiste. One of the relief teachers is Mr Kang and he was in the MRT TRAIN but I cannot confirm if it's him but they look super alike. Up to 80% of resemblance if you ask me. The same fair skin and sharp nose and small eyes and Justin Bieber's hair. So you know after getting out the MRT, we tried to see from the back view if it was really him but he was using his iphone and stalking people at that time. HAHAHA. Go and view woman's photos hahahahhaha!!!!!!

Had dinner with YunXuan yesterday and I ordered Peach Yoghurt to go with my chicken rice. I thought the Peach Yoghurt would be really nice combination but it tasted like medicine to me. I only drank a few mouthfuls and I have to force myself to drink so as to convince myself that it wasn't really that bad. Costs me $1.50. Then I decided I couldn't take the taste anymore and I text JiaYing asking her if she wants it cause I was too full from my dinner. HAHA but she declined my offer, I think she knows I'm not that generous and so something fishy is going on. I wanted to throw it away but YunXuan insisted me to ''try'' but I keep showing that look of disgust when I sipped it. Yunxuan wanted to buy a drink but I offered her my peach yoghurt instead and she ACCEPTED my offer. HAHAHHAAH! Epicness. I also bought Ben and Jerry's chocolate chip dough cookie yesterday and it costs me $5.20. Pricy I know but it tasted soooo gooooooooood!! Maybe it's 心理作用。Expensive food always taste nice LOLOLOLOL.

I wanted to blog something yesterday but the stupid internet connection got problems. ugh. Shall end this post with my cute cute face.


Got the o_o plus :P face or not?
Trying the ;P face.

Okay you can go and vomit out your breakfast/lunch/dinner according to the time now. BYE.

Not capable up keeping up this front anymore,
don't know when i'll break down.

To pursue or not?
To pursue or not?
What if I regret?
I can't turn back anymore.
To pursue or not?
Fuck life.

forever happy. lol.