And it terrifies me how not seriously I'm taking this.

I'll probably revamp my blog after Os. Anyway,study week is this week and then its prelims 2. Nearly 1 more month to Os. Hope motivation will accompany me till Os end. Need to stop thinking of depressing stuff.

I want to be able to have frequent holidays to other countries when I'm older without worrying about the costs.

Live life in luxury. What I always wanted.

I totally forgot the fact I have blogger app on my iPod. Don't even dare to count my L1R4 for Prelims as I think the number is too big. Only allows me to go ITE if it's my actual o levels results.

Been feeling so mug angst recently.I really need to buck up. The thought of Wednesday tomorrow really ruins my mood but it's the last Wednesday with double periods so just go bah. And also, study break next week then it's Prelims 2 the following week. Special timetable for the next 3 weeks then it's O levels.

I feel really unprepared. Very scared I will fuck up everything. I always have a tendency of fucking things up. I'm always underachieving in life,damn.

Everyday reach home,bathe and nap. And then wake up dinner. Then do little bit of work and somehow I drag till 12:30am plus or later then sleep. Morning very tired,come back home and the same cycle repeats. Damn.

I feel so much better letting things out here.

How many times have I tell myself to buck up? Fear is really getting to me. Always last minute. I hate you Zhi ling. Urgh.