2014 wasn't a boom-bangz kind of a year. Things were pretty much okay. I didn't really bond any close friendships with anyone unlike 2013. I guess I'm still the same old me when it comes to friendships,refusing to give parts of me until that person is worthy of my trust and time. 2014,my anxiety and insomnia problems were back. From sleeping to 1am in 2013,I slept mostly at 2am or 3am in 2014.
2014 I questioned a lot of things about myself and people. I did make a constant effort to keep up with certain friendships but I realized people were constantly changing and sometimes their life values and yours change and you have no idea to drop the friendship or continue because of the past.
I lived life in a okay,let's get this over and done with,lets just survive attitude. Not good I know. I hide behind shells and I don't know,I suppose I was afraid to let people know the real me. I want to be a more authentic me in 2015.
2014 was filled with so much negative emotions. Mostly anger and loneliness ate at me. I got frustrated with myself many times,wanting to reconnect yet afraid. 2014 I tried too hard to prove things which I don't need to.
I'm still grateful for the many wonderful people in my life and I hope 2015 will be a better one! I hope people around me will stay healthy and happy! Here's some pictures of my loved ones! :)
