There's a rough estimate of 2.5 months to go. Or even lesser because of public holidays. How does feeling free feels like? I know a part of me will be fucked by nostalgia when everything ends. I'll end up missing people and feeling even more lonely.
Small talk made me happy but they ended up making me feel vasts of emptiness because I was unable to connect and re-create that level of emotional intimacy I had with you years ago. It was difficult for me to show the raw bits of myself to him or anyone else because that amount of faith I had was taken away from me once and I'm unwilling to have it taken from me away again.
I've always been afraid of uncertainty and its always been a big challenge when it comes to connecting me with another individual; be it platonic friendship or something else.
Contrary to the picture,I am not a sophisticated person. I am a clumsy dwarf and my English is often ridiculed in real life. Thank god for internet.
