Contrary to the picture,I am not a sophisticated person. I am a clumsy dwarf and my English is often ridiculed in real life. Thank god for internet.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
I always blog about the first day of school so here I am.
I'm now secondary four! 2012 now,oh god.
I'm still short,so yeah,makes no difference if you put me beside a secondary one.:(
Flower speech was boring as usual and we were made to sing the national anthem twice. ._.
Aiss seems to become more strict.
We no longer get to wear predominantly white shoes,must be all white.
Only can wear our predominantly white shoes till June. After that in term 3 onwards,must change to all white.
Every period is now 35 minutes instead of 40 minutes which is good news for me! But our recess is now 10.40am instead of 10.20am.. And recess time is extended wee~~ 30 minutes and 5 mintues to go back to class.
BUT
THE SAD NEWS IS OUR DISMISSAL TIME ON THURSDAYS IS 3.20PM! D:
Lunch will be from 1.35pm to 2.10pm and then there's 2 more periods which end at 3.20pm.This sucks seriously,cause I have tuition from 7pm-10pm.Which means that I will be screwed if they decided to have any SRPs on Thursdays.And let's say I get home around 3.40pm and bathe all that by 4pm.Then spend time to do my homework and revise till 6pm.Then eat dinner then go for tuition. All the way till 10pm.
I no need to rest on Thursdays le. Which meant I will spend my entire day STUDYING!! OMFG T.T
My no life 的 life is going to start soon.Today I went for lunch with Shahira,I'm so damn full now. Suppose to do my undone holiday assignment but I don't have the mood. :(
And yeah,my English teacher is NOT Ms Zuraida,it's Mr Kumar instead.I got a good impression of him because he was mentioned before during assembly LOL. And Chemistry teacher is still GARY LEE,not Mdm Azlin, YES!!!!!! Emaths teacher change to Fredrick Yong but never mind lah,I heard that he's good in teaching emaths. Amaths teacher is still aw but I will rely on tuition teacher and friends instead.
Ps. Mr Chin is leaving with my batch I think. Got new botak principal.
I am insignificant I suppose.
Loneliness.My life is going to be DEAD SLOW PLEASE .
“Cold sinks in, there to stay. And people, they’ll leave you, sure. There’s no return to what was and no way back. There’s just emptiness all around, and you in it, like singing up from the bottom of a well, like nothing else, until you harm yourself, until you are a mad dog biting yourself for sympathy. ''
Friday, December 30, 2011
2011
I'm doing a review of 2011 since it's going to end soon,really really soon.
2011, made me a stronger person I supposed.
I was no longer with my clique and I have to adapt to a new class,new routine,new life.
I supposed it was quite hard fitting in and I still cannot fit in up till today but that's alright,only 1 last year to go through.
2011,I tried to learn how to live with loneliness and insecurities.My diary entries revealed a complete side of me I never knew,the very fearful me.2011 tells me that I'm a very sentimental person,I keep living in the past.
Extract from diary entry 10 May 2011
'' Everything just muddles up into one big mess.You know its so tiring to feel so insecure every day?Sometimes I really worry so much about my future.What if I fail my o levels?See what I meant?Sigh,unnecessary thinking and anxiety again.I wish I could just live in the moment.I'm just watching days slip by.''
And then there was this person making me very confused.I asked myself a lot of times what I truly wanted and I am glad I didn't make any decision when he sent that sms to me because it would really be unfair to him.Although we're not speaking anymore but I am still grateful to at least have him in my life.
And unknowingly I changed a lot of Amaths tuition teachers,from ErYu to Mr Gan to Wayne and to my current one WJ. Sometimes after Amaths tuition, me and Eryu would either go for dinner near the coffee shop and we would talk about all sorts of things ranging from life to relationships.As for Mr Gan's, although he is a very patient man but my anxiety problems during june was killing me so I decided to quit. As for Wayne, he teach kinda fast and it's hard for me to catch up so yeah,I quit.But there are memories of Jiayi,HuiLing and me staying back at night near exam periods just to study Amaths at wayne's. And each time after wayne's,I will feel satisfication cause my brain is overly saturated.
And then there was SYF 2011,the rehearsals thrice every week and rehearsals at ACJC.I was part of the technical crew at first and then Mr Ang asked me to join the slaves.I initially declined due to several factors, namely my own ability to commit and I get pressurized damn easily and I was afraid I would bring the whole team down.But it was still a really great wonderful learning experience so I'm glad I didn't back out due to my own weaknesses. :)
Birthday Celebration for the October babies! Note that all of us above are born in october except JianXing and PuayLin.
Birthday surprise organised by drama clique! Very touched! ps i look fugly in the photo above.
Birthday surprise organised by the girls! <3
Raj's birthday surprise with drama clique!
2e3 class outing at East Coast and I had a memorable experience kenna hit by bicycle.Pasir Ris park outing with Jianxing and PuayLin :D
Drama Camp 2011. Never knew that person meant so much to me.
Vetina's birthday celebration at Univeral Studios! <3 Glad that I was brave enough to take the roller coaster!!!
Christmas performance on 17 December.
Christmas Dinner @ Lucinda's.
In 2012, I will be a better person,more positive and be in control of my own emotions!
Thank you for staying in my life in 2011 - JianXing,PuayLin,YunXuan,Heidi,Jiawen,Syafiqah,Vetina,Liying
Thank you for coming into my life in 2011- Farah,Quanen,Suzanne,SuanKheng
Dear you,
there's not more you in 2012 and I no longer get to see your cute face in school. I no longer get to see you when I walk past your class or in the canteen.I wish you all the best for 2012.
Yours Sincerely,
someone whom once loved you.
Hope 2012 will be a better year for myself and everyone else! Last year in Ahmad Ibrahim!
Gonna embrace next year, o levels woooooo.
<3
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Wishes
I wished for motivation and the ability to let go of sadness. Go away please. I wished for the ability to let go of the past. To embrace loneliness instead of fearing it. I wished for courage . Face 2012 bravely!
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