Forcing laughter,faking smiles,same old tired lonely place.

I don't like it when people see me and I am in my upset state.
That's why I would rather choose to rant it out in other ways.
Be it blogging,tweeting or tumblr-ing.


I am supposed to feel super upset with my IPOD TOUCH.
I only had it for 2 weeks.
Two weeks.
Sigh,but what to do?What can I do beside waiting for the police to update me about it?
Crying,I have already done that in class.
Just hopes karma hits that guy hard.

I am asking myself why my mouth is so big now.
Caused so many people to be D:
ZhiLing,you're fucking dumb.
Really.

I can't stand being alone recently,it makes me afraid.
It makes me think too much about things which I am not suppose to think.
Everyday I go to class,numb.
I'm smiling,I'm laughing.
Truth is I can't even concentrate.
I watch the teacher talk,I do the things I am supposed to do
but I don't even know what I am doing.
Friends,they drift.
People always drift in and out of your life,don't they?

Nothing is permanent;or stays forever.
Kept telling myself never mind,smile,2011 is over soon.
soon.
Has been 2 months and I am,here.


In the middle of nowhere.

I don't tell you things anymore,not because I don't want you to worry,its because I am scared you wouldn't worry.