Brace myself for the goodbye.

It's really hard to say goodbye to holidays.. 1 month of vacation simply passed just like that. So yeah,how did I spent my holidays?I spend my holidays going out with my beloved friends,a part of it going for Amaths tuition,watching Youtube videos,reading blogs etc.1 month to think over what went wrong this 6 months. 1 month of finding myself,1 month of discovering a new me.1 month of learning what is happiness.One of the outings with Syafiqah at Scape.The background is really awesome(:Radio interview for 105.5fm.Botanic garden and shopping at ION with Vetina and Liying.Me acting like a professional photographer.

Yeah,little sniplets of my holidays.I went to SuanKheng's house yesterday and we completed our parts for the Maths and English project within a few hours.So proud of us! I have this sense of achievement and satisfaction bubbling inside me when we completed copying all the questions and answers for our maths project.
Guess what?I have not completed my holidays assignments as usual! I only completed my higher chinese and a little English homework.There's still Chemistry and Amaths and English.
I highly doubt I can complete Amaths,there's like 10 topics or so and I have forgotten nearly everything about Amaths.Fuck Amaths.Why must the stupid school make it a compulsory subject?Anyway,I'm supposed to be doing my homework but instead I'm here happily blogging.HAHAHHAHAHA!! I don't have any sense of urgency.
This is a really long post,hope you guys don't mind.In term 3 and 4,I shall set the following goals for myself.

1)To be a more positive person,which means less complaining and embracing happiness more.

2)To focus more on school work and reduce the frequency of going online.Which means cutting down on Facebook,Tumblr T-T,Twitter. I seldom blog so yeah.. Don't need to cut down.Plus I feel that blogging can help to improve my language and the way I express myself,so why should I cut down on something which will benefit me?LOL.

3)To accept 3E2 ,maybe the reason why I feel so unhappy in class is because I feel lonely,refuse to accept the fact I'm in 3E2.I see more of 3e2's flaws than it's good points.

4)Stop fearing and worrying about little things.This is really hard for me as I'm an over-thinker..BUTTTTT I'm going to try.

5)To be a more confident person.

6)To be more grateful and thankful for the people around me.

7)To sleep early.Every night I stay up late,not because I'm not tired.Not because I want to tweak on social networking sites.Because I'm tired,I want to sleep.But I can't because my mind runs like crazy.It over thinks,over analyzes things that I don't want to think about.The more I think,the more scared I get.I'm so scared and insecure sometimes my heart beats so fast.. It's like I have some anxiety problems.So I keep myself awake and tire myself out so that when I lie in my bed,I fall into a deep sleep and my thoughts don't keep me awake. Another reason is I'm afraid of facing another day,facing another tomorrow.Staying up late is a like lying to myself,I'm still in today and tomorrow won't be coming so quickly.

So yeah,it's 12 noon and I have not bathe yet.Goooodbye and I hope you enjoyed this post! :)

I am going to make myself a more positive person.
I am going to be happy.
I am going to make my life awesome.
I am going to stop worrying.
I am going to try.

ZZZZ.

Some many people from school follows me on Tumblr/Twitter.
Really hate it,all my privacy ALL GONE.
Cause they are places where I reveal my inner feelings.
One new follower?
Yay!
Then.. *wait it's someone you know from school?*


*stabs hearts with a million knifes*

Performing

This is a photo taken in 2002.
9 years ago.
This photo indeed brought back fond memories.
It was my first stage performance.
I remembered we had to pay $60 for the costume and shoes.We had to dance together with students from the other class too.
HAHAHAHAA.
I was really excited to perform on stage and I remember myself enjoying each rehearsal.
We performed at Yishun Community Centre..
I was the first one to reach the kindergarden to put on my makeup.I felt so grownup at that point of time HAHAH.
As you can see from the photo above,my lipstick is really red.
I felt so happy after performing,I loved every minute on the stage.
I remember telling my mum,I'm so happy today,I'm going to remember this day for the rest of my life.LOL.

So yeah,that was my first time on stage.

I also had several experiences on stage in primary school..
This is a trophy I won when I was in primary 3. My teacher asked me to join a story telling competition and I did.I remembered memorizing the story everyday,I even ask my mum to buy a mini-storybook.It's a story about a crocodile LOL and I have to tell it in chinese.

In primary 5,we have to do a music project.. I was in a group with LiYing,Vetina,Fouzy,Nazirul I think.We had fun choreographing the moves.. Practising at the void deck in my primary school. The song we did was ''Toxic'' by Britney Spears.There's this day where John's group came to use the voiddeck and we were not happy about it cause we felt that they took our terrority. LOL

And my last time performing on stage in primary school was in primary 6.Every class had to do a dance.. before we graduate.There's a video on Youtube.
LOL Everyone wooooooo when we came out,the chinese dance part.Cause we wore sleeveless top,kinda sexyyy :P

And yeah,my first performance in AISS did have a huge impact on me.


And then...
Acheivement day 2010

There's the national day play too..

And there's the CNY play this year.. There's SYF...
Bye. I'm lazy to post anymore.

I joined Yunxuan and Jiaying's tuition.
I survived 3 and a half hours of tuition!!!!!!
Amaths can kill many brain cells!!

I hope my laziness can go away.
6 more terms and I will be done with secondary school.
Bear with it,bear with it.

I envy those primary school kids.. 4 subjects only.. Lucky kids..
I must be positive. I won't get F9.I won't get F9.I won't get F9.
At worst,drop Amaths in 2012?
And work harder for science?

Why am I feeling so scared and nervous???
Ugh FML.

It's 12.30am,goodnight.

I'm not suppose to feel this way.

My heart hurts.

I'm fucking irritated by a friend's attitude.I asked you what's wrong,I wanted you to talk things out so that you can solve whatever misunderstanding with her.You refused.

Seriously what the fuck is wrong with you?


I wouldn't even have bothered if this friendship didn't mean anything to me.I would have HECKCARE,just live my own life and be happy.

Instead I'm here blogging feeling angry and irritated.

I just want to know what's wrong.

If it's misunderstanding,perhaps we can clear things up.

Forget it. You want talk or not,up to you.Bye.No use forcing you also.

i don't want to talk

the tweets you made, its annoying. You are still friends with her. I am still friends with you. Nothing wrong with me being not friends with her.

I'm the red and he's the blue.

K,since that's what you want.

K!!!!!!!!

Pfffffft.

Day dreaming part 2

I suggest you read from daydreaming part one first..

I'll have vacations with him like that and I'll pose like that in photos.

HAHAHAHA my life in my head sounds very perfect right?That's me,I like to daydream a lot.LOL

Day dreaming part one

I'm studying hard so that I'll...
have a kitchen like this.
live in houses like this.Own makeup like this.Lipgloss,eyeshadows,mascara,eyeliner,you name it.
Have adorable to die for pets like that.
And awesome breakfasts like pancakes and waffles.
And drink Starbucks coffee if I feel like it.
And have yummy ice-creams and yogurts and fruit-sticks after dinner.





And yeah,have a room for closet in my house..
And have lovely shoes like these and vintage floral dresses and as much denim shorts as I want.

And I'll have wedding dresses and walk on the beach with him at dawn or dusk..