Brace myself for the goodbye.

It's really hard to say goodbye to holidays.. 1 month of vacation simply passed just like that. So yeah,how did I spent my holidays?I spend my holidays going out with my beloved friends,a part of it going for Amaths tuition,watching Youtube videos,reading blogs etc.1 month to think over what went wrong this 6 months. 1 month of finding myself,1 month of discovering a new me.1 month of learning what is happiness.One of the outings with Syafiqah at Scape.The background is really awesome(:Radio interview for 105.5fm.Botanic garden and shopping at ION with Vetina and Liying.Me acting like a professional photographer.

Yeah,little sniplets of my holidays.I went to SuanKheng's house yesterday and we completed our parts for the Maths and English project within a few hours.So proud of us! I have this sense of achievement and satisfaction bubbling inside me when we completed copying all the questions and answers for our maths project.
Guess what?I have not completed my holidays assignments as usual! I only completed my higher chinese and a little English homework.There's still Chemistry and Amaths and English.
I highly doubt I can complete Amaths,there's like 10 topics or so and I have forgotten nearly everything about Amaths.Fuck Amaths.Why must the stupid school make it a compulsory subject?Anyway,I'm supposed to be doing my homework but instead I'm here happily blogging.HAHAHHAHAHA!! I don't have any sense of urgency.
This is a really long post,hope you guys don't mind.In term 3 and 4,I shall set the following goals for myself.

1)To be a more positive person,which means less complaining and embracing happiness more.

2)To focus more on school work and reduce the frequency of going online.Which means cutting down on Facebook,Tumblr T-T,Twitter. I seldom blog so yeah.. Don't need to cut down.Plus I feel that blogging can help to improve my language and the way I express myself,so why should I cut down on something which will benefit me?LOL.

3)To accept 3E2 ,maybe the reason why I feel so unhappy in class is because I feel lonely,refuse to accept the fact I'm in 3E2.I see more of 3e2's flaws than it's good points.

4)Stop fearing and worrying about little things.This is really hard for me as I'm an over-thinker..BUTTTTT I'm going to try.

5)To be a more confident person.

6)To be more grateful and thankful for the people around me.

7)To sleep early.Every night I stay up late,not because I'm not tired.Not because I want to tweak on social networking sites.Because I'm tired,I want to sleep.But I can't because my mind runs like crazy.It over thinks,over analyzes things that I don't want to think about.The more I think,the more scared I get.I'm so scared and insecure sometimes my heart beats so fast.. It's like I have some anxiety problems.So I keep myself awake and tire myself out so that when I lie in my bed,I fall into a deep sleep and my thoughts don't keep me awake. Another reason is I'm afraid of facing another day,facing another tomorrow.Staying up late is a like lying to myself,I'm still in today and tomorrow won't be coming so quickly.

So yeah,it's 12 noon and I have not bathe yet.Goooodbye and I hope you enjoyed this post! :)