Zimplicity;

You ever felt so suffocated that you can't breathe?

I did,this year.

I hate who I am this year.

You know,sometimes I really envy people for being able to be happy.They said happiness is a choice.Did I choose to be depressed?

Perhaps I'm unhappy because I can't accept things.My stubborn little mind conjures things,hoping that they'll come out my way.

KaiFeng said I'm short-tempered. I admitted I am.I hated my mother because she's childish at times in her thinking,short-tempered and many more etc. I hate how she gets angry so easily,I hated how she refuse to learn things just because she thinks she's not able to learn it,she gives up far too easily.I hate how easily she's able to see other people's flaws.

And then I reflected upon myself,I'm the same.

The exact same.

I think far too negatively.I worry too much about things even though they are not likely to happen.I judge others too much,I'm anti-social in my class and I complain about the loneliness even though I'm the one who built the wall around my heart first,I get angry and annoyed at people far too easily,I give up easily. I am warrior of refusing not to try.

I tell people I can't do it when I didn't even put in enough effort in the first place,I'm so weak.I get jealous of other people accomplishments but fuck yeah,I didn't even do anything to deserve the so called accomplishments. I have super low self esteem,and I hate my looks a lot.

I'm not as confident as I seem..I can't even accept myself for who i am. That's a flaw,eh?

I don't trust people easily.

I'm a slave of my own emotions this year,I dwell too much on unhappy stuff.I stayed up late,thinking that tomorrow will be a better day. I spend too much time in my own world,in social network sites.

I need to change.