On a Thursday,in a cafe.

Syafiqah and I intially wanted to visit another cafe at first but it was closed and it started raining so we went to this cafe named Habitat Coffee instead.I swear we look damn retarded running to the bus stop for shelter and I hollered,'' EH HURRY LEH. RAIN LIAO LEH.''

 

Cute little signboard outside the cafe. 

This is a really cool handmade queue number. It even has a quote on it,''Art is the only way to run away without leaving home.''

Look at the container they used to hold their utensils! Isn't it so vintage looking?

This is the Caramel Coffee which I ordered. It comes with a cute little biscuit.

Sipping my cup of coffee. BLISSFUL.

This is actually my lunch. It's called Cheesynara,I have no idea what that means though but it's really one of the best pasta I've eaten. The sauce is like cheesy and it has sausage and bacon in it too. The chef is really generous with his ingredients. Pastamania should feel ashamed. LOL. Although it is a little pricey but I think it's really worth it for the ambiance in the cafe. Just like what the name of the cafe suggests,it really feels like home.

Syafiqah ordered hot chocolate and tiramisu and I find her hot chocolate so cute! Maybe I shall order that when I visit it next time!

One of the art piece on the wall. It reminds me of us,human beings. A lot of us hold this fierce independent front but deep down,we are just as vulnerable like any other people.

''Down the stairs,I was there. I remember it all too well.'' HAHAHAH made use of Taylor's lyrics in All Too Well in this photo.

One of my favorite photo taken yesterday. Credits to Syafiqah. Double click on her name to pay her blog a visit!

The woman behind me spoil my artsy photo. The woman with the bag in the earlier picture too. SPOILER MAN. -.- Anyway,I really like this outfit of mine. They are actually two separate pieces. I tucked my top into my flowy pants.Their shades are really similar too so its like a monochrome colour block. I took this chance to jazz up my top with my statement necklace which I seldom get the chance to wear as my tops are usually too ''busy-looking'' to match it with.

 Taken with the fish eye effect using one of the photography app in my iphone. LOL I LOOK CUTE ANNOT? Syafiqah set it as contact picture in her phone HAHAHHA.

Taken in the cafe.It would have been a nice photo if the front camera quality weren't so shitty. :(

I wanted to post this on Instagram initially but Instagram kept failing me so in the end i just post a solo photo instead of a collage.

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April is approaching,can't believe 1/4 of the year is gone just like that. Have a great weekend ahead!:)

Rants and pet peeves

Today I will be sharing with all of you some of my pet peeves.

This is from wikipedia :

A pet peeve is a minor annoyance that an individual identifies as particularly annoying to them, to a greater degree than others may find it.Pet peeves often involve specific behaviors of someone close, such as a spouse or significant other.These behaviors may involve disrespect, manners, personal hygiene, relationships, and family issues.A key aspect of a pet peeve is that it may well seem acceptable to others.

1. Saying that you're ugly over again and again

Like c'mon,what do you expect me to do? The only thing I could do is say,no you're not honey and give you some reassurance. I have this experience whereby I'm so pissed off to the extent that I told the person to get plastic surgery if she's really that unhappy about her looks.I might seems harsh but this is really annoying to me. I mean looks although are an important asset to a female but if you cling on to the belief you are ugly,what can I do?

2.Having no sense of originality
Imagine you're a designer. You designed this really great piece of artwork and another designer just take your design and passes it off as his or her own,changing like 10% of your work. How would you feel? Probably feel like scolding the person fuck you and suing him or her for stealing your hard work right?

3.Canceling dates or changing the dates the night before
This has probably happened to each and every single one of you before. If not,sooner or later in your life. I simply hate it when people cancel dates. I know sometimes its inevitable because the person might have something on at the last moment which is acceptable but when its a juvenile excuse like come on,I have been anticipating to so called hang out with you and you shifted the date due to some stupid reasons?? Like you very important is it,people must cater to your needs ah? At least respect the person and inform in advance instead of doing so at the last minute. He or she might have cancelled plans for YOU.

4.3's a crowd 
I mean like yeah you asked me out,and you're talking all the way with another friend. Can't you tell I'm really quiet and try to include me in the conversation? ARE YOU THAT TACTLESS? Am I like some second hand goods for you to talk to when the other party's saliva has run out??? I might as well go out alone right?
And also,going off with another friend when we are going out as a group. Bloody hell am I some animal for you to abandon? Thanks for making me feel unimportant uh. ARE YOU THAT TACTLESS?

5. Using poverty as an excuse not to go out
I would suggest,robbing a bank or stabbing someone in the heart so you can go to jail and get free food and lodging for the rest of your life.

I can't remember anything from my past anymore.
I can't feel how I used to feel as well,void of all emotions.
Everything feels like a blank. 

I feel so depressed and sad till i feel this ache in my heart. I felt as though I'm such a useless person recently. Eat sleep use handphone use computer.
I miss studying for Os even.
sigh

I read her blog and I wonder who's the new her in your life.

Tonight I am thinking through many things. What if I disappear? Who the fuck would still care?


I miss you so much. I think no one cares about me the way you do. No one can ever replace you. Come back.

Instagram all glamorous. Real life I'm just a pathetic loser which no one really wants.

'' My life is mundane.''

This sentence is such an understatement.No idea why I am getting pissed off by everyone around me recently.But I feel sorry for myself living in solitude.Only 2 days being at home,I feel so miserable already.I miss going to school and having something to do. All I do is eat and sleep and go to social networking sites and I feel like such a useless person with no goals in life suddenly.

I don't really know how to express myself but I guess I'm just highly unmotivated in life. :(

Priya's birthday party on Sunday. Which is yesterday. Raj ain't in this photo because he wasn'
t there yet because he had to attend some ear piercing ceremony before he came. The incomplete clique.

Priya looked really gorgeous that day. I mean yesterday. My face looks squarish because i clipped up my fringe LOL.

An act cute face with another ''why am i stuck with her im so pathetic'' face. LOL

Polariods ^_^ Shahira wasn't in the picture because she left early. :(

When I saw JinKheng's outfit,I seriously LOL because it was kind of similar to mine because of the colour and it's checkered too. -_-

The worst part was Shahira said:'' eh you two going visiting for Chinese New Year ah?''
LOLOLOLOLOLOL

And so this is what I wore.

Okay this pathetic post is just filled with pictures and captions byebye. I realise I forgot to take a picture with Shahira and Raj. LOL

I had this at Gelare, causeway point today. Although it's pricey but I really feel a surge of delight eating this dessert. It has always been one of my wishes to have something like this. The icecream is really good,I had caramel fudge brownie. It's kind of disappointing that the outlet at Causeway point didn't offer cookie dough! :( Hopefully next time I can buy the ingredients and make something like this but the waffle,will be a very big challenge as it's crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. Like cake.

My whatsapp conversation with Tiger today made me very happy. ''I so long never see you le,but we still can chat about so many things. wee. I'm the best senior right.'' ''We never see each other for a year plus liao.Thought I long forgotten.''

I feel quite touched that someone actually appreciates my effort to keep in touch. To sustain a friendship,it's really not easy. We are acquainted with so many people but what does it takes to actually maintain a friendship for years? It's inevitable that people walk in and out of your life but I don't see the point of getting close with someone and them walking out in the end. I remember I had this friend which I was pretty,not really close but considered close in cca. We no longer talk after he changed CCA which is pretty sad. I'm afraid some of my secondary school friends and I will drift apart too. But I don't have much friends to begin with in the first place..

Younger brother heading for hongkong and shenzhen,China for some immersion programme and he gets to visit HongKong disneyland. :( *envious face pops up* Reminds me of the time he sent me that text asking me to buy sweets to shanghai because he knows I have low blood sugar and he sent me this super long goodbye message.He was the first person I text when I get back to SG LOL. So fast 3 years passed.

Goodnight.

Sometimes we portray a version of ourselves which we want to show to others,why?I missed times when people are authentic and aren't afraid to be silly and show the world their stupid side. I missed conversations about random things,filled with so little content yet so enjoyable.

Actually I kind of miss work. I miss interacting with different clients and delivering documents to different places,exploring different scenery of Singapore. Waking up and having my breakfast before work and then countdown to lunch time. And then taking the rebound train after delivering documents or completion on purpose and tada,its 6pm. Knock off and dinner. Watch tv and sleep. Countdown to friday and make plans for weekend to enjoy myself.

I only appreciate the ability to ''nua'' when I got work. Now I have all the time and freedom to do so,it becomes boring,empty. My life currently is boring,void of spectrum of emotions and meaning.There's nothing to do,nothing to dread,nothing to look forward to.

Lower secondary school life was like a adrenaline rush for me while upper secondary school life was filled with fears and slopes. Feeling myself slipping away yet not having enough courage to pull myself back on the track which I was suppose to.

I have no idea what this blogpost is actually about. Just typing whatever that comes to my mind. I don't know how to explain all these thoughts to my friends. Sometimes I even feel that my friends don't understand me.

Okay beside all these chim weird thoughts which always pops up in my mind,I went shopping with Heidi today and I'm damn happy I bought a plaid shirt for $5. It wasn't the kind of pattern I wanted BUT the size is just nice which makes me thankful BECAUSE ... I'm fucking petite and big plaid shirts would just look unkempt and awful on my body. Although it got studs which made it very hipster-ish and ew-ish but I think I can pull the look off lah. No one will really go look at the studs right? LOLOLOL.

Walao I don't think anyone reads my blog but it's okay I'm just typing for the sake of it and pathetic me is stuck on level 8 of candy crush. I don't even find it fun sia but I feel very pekcek I cannot level up. Okay it's 12:45am now goodnight.

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Why is everything catered to your needs? Am I just someone for you to use to cater to your selfish vanity so you can flaunt your so called beauty built on lies and self deception to flaunt to the world?

Dear friend,

How are you? This fragment piece of memory in the back of your mind,misses you a lot. Have you ever thought me,with nostalgic feelings arising at night? Is missing you a habit? I wondered sometimes. With new people replacing old ones in your life,have the old you died off? You know,even though the magic's long gone,bits and bits of me still go back to it sometimes. I can't help it. I know my blog posts always hadn't got much details,except for him and him and him.

My life has been stagnant for the past few days. Quit my job because being busy for the 1/2 of the day doesn't prevents me from missing you.Actually it does,more or less. Missing sounds so overrated. I would say,digging up the tainted memories,reminiscing the old times which everyone has long forgotten.

You know,sometimes I wished I could give myself a brand new identity,go to some very very place where no one knows me.I no longer feel happy when I hang out with friends.I no longer have that vooom booom kaboom feeling inside like I want to do this,I want to do that. I don't even find things funny.

When you had a routine,a goal. You got tired of it but because everyone's chasing the same ball,you chased for the sake of it without really knowing where to score.And then you tried,you persevere,but you lost. ''Nah,it's okay. There's still a next chance.'' How do you carry on,fight even harder when you lost something you supposingly put so much work into,so much mental strength?

You just feel lost and don't want to continue. You know?

Friend,I'm so tired at times. I've been tired for years. And you freaking promised to be there to listen but you didn't.I always believe you would. You didn't. You left. Why. Am I too melodramatic for you. Am I such a tragedy to behold?

Yours Sincerely,
Z