Today was kind of eventful I suppose. 8am classes on Fridays sucks. Nearly died during Stats because I was so cold and hungry! All I can think of was FOOD. My stomach seems to be a black hole recently. I keep on stuffing myself with food!

Bought these yesterday during breaktime at Cheers! I'm totally addicted to these luxury cream wafers! I prefer the strawberry and vanilla flavors as compared to the chocolate one!

This is what I do with wafers.. BE A FUCKING WALRUS. HAHAHAAHHA.Stupid Kaihin made this meme of me LOL. I look quite retarded but it's hilarious so I'm sharing it with you guys at my expense.

 Was so so so hungry after Stats and chionged to Koufu. Had fried fish noodles for lunch! The soup is kind of diluted though. :/

Bought this during break time today! The ham and cheese prez is super yummy! It's salty the way I want it! LOVE LOVE LOVE grape mentos.

Anyway,my class had our first formal presentation today for marketing! I was so tense and my legs kept shivering in the tutorial room. Can you spot me? I'm fourth from the right. The first row. Short that's why must stand in front HAHA.

With the girls. :D

My face looks so swollen and chubby here. :<

There's a 28 seconds video of me presenting on facebook if you're keen to watch but I'm slouching and I look damn unflattering lah.

Went to causeway point to catch a movie with Kaifeng and Suzanne. We were suppose to catch World War Z at 5.15pm but then this kaifeng go and buy his dinner and I thought he couldn't finish his food by that time so I switched to White House Down at 6.20pm.

I would say it's a pretty thrilling movie but it's kind of violent. But still a good movie lah hahaha. But I personally prefer comedies though.

 

LOL JUST WANNA ACT CUTE WITH MONSTERS FOR ONCE

I look like a waitress hahaha and my face damn chubby why oh why.... Must be the angle ugh.

Didn't have dinner as I was kinda full from Old Chang Kee food but I'm feeling so hungry now at 12.12am. URGHHH.

Anyway,been having a craving for mcCafe drinks and wanted to get double chocolate but I saw this Caramel Machiato (how do you spell it) and I bought it... turns out it's not even nice and it's fucking coffee. Like who even drinks coffee at night unless you're planning to stay up right? :<

Okay it's a pretty lengthy post but I HOPE my readers enjoy my posts more recently because less of emotional blogposts. Oh Rizzuan's impression of me is that I'm judgemental and temperamental and kiasu and panicking queen about studies LOL. OKAY I AGREE with the panicking part because I have anxiety issues but I'm not really that kiasu.

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Thursday - Checked out in red

What I've worn to school today. Plaid shirt with a black overall. And my comfortable but very dirty red striped canvas shoes.

Anyway,it's Friday tomorrow! I know most people like fridays because they don't have to head to school for 2 days afterwards as it's weekends. But fridays are really tiring for me as I have 3 tutorials and each tutorial is like 2 hours. Classes begins at 8amand end around 12 before we head for a 2 hour break and there's 1 tutorial left. So technically speaking,I'll be spending 8 hours in school which sucks!!!

There's still marketing presentation tomorrow. Pretty excited about wearing formal wear BUT you guys know how much I suck at talking in front of huge groups of people right? :((

On a side note,I'll be watching World War Z with Suzanne and Kaifeng after school! Most probably eating dinner with them too!

Shall start on my research for stupid econs but I wanna watch TV AS WELL URGH WHY DO LIFE SUCKS

Tuesday,June 25 2013

 

I dressed up today. Usually I would just slip in a comfortable T-shirt with denim shorts because I'm too lazy to dress up. Love my combination of crochet lace top with denim skirt. Credits to Monica helping me take the photo! I was so awkward hahaha because I was afraid people would walk past and go ''why the heck is she taking photo in the school?''

I really envy those people who can be happy so easily. 可能我真的把东西看得太重了，想太多了。要太多了。

Tomorrow is Wednesday again. Although it is the day where class end the earliest,but it's the day i feel stressed out the most because I fucking hate IT MODULES. I hope this module will only be for semester 1. I will really thank god if this happens please please please.

5 more days to July. 

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4 Things I want to say right now

1. I am suppose to be sleeping now but no,I am filled with anxiety about my ICA tomorrow and it's the first day of school technically speaking.I am often described as ''emo'' but I think I am just a little on the melancholic side. I am lost in my own thoughts very often. I am not really an introvert but I only open up to people whom I want to. Not really much of a people person but being alone scares me so I would rather be with people most of the times.

2. I would love to open up and be adventurous in life but heck no,I'm way too lazy and fearful to try out new things so I'm still stuck in my own circle that I drew myself. I would love love love to have a fashion blog and you know,start my own vlogs and stuff but heck no,I'm too lazy to learn video editing and I'm way tooooooo shy. Actually not really shy ah,like just afraid of what people would say HAHAHAHA.

3.I have very low self esteem about my looks and intellect and I'm really lost in life like now. Yes now.

4.It's supposed to be 10 facts about myself but I should head to bed because I'm suppose to wake up at 9am tomorrow but I'm here because I'm so angsty about my ICA and they said writing is suppose to be therapeutic so I'm here. Goodnight and one more week to July! 

Ps.Had to went back and edit the title because I put 3 things i want to say right now instead of 4. LOLOLOL okay goodnight for real. 

Was suppose to meet QE at 1pm but he just woke up so I ... spent like 1 hour in the library.

My cheese sausage prata! We had a food trip at upper thomson road hehe. His treat as an apology cause he's late!

 

His icecream with waffle! Peppermint with dont know what icecream and chocolate lolz.

 

My salted caramel icecream with rum and raisin icecream and marshmellow toppings! The price is not that expensive as I thought it would be! But no idea why my chocolate sauce become maple syrup sauce! I couldn't finish the waffle in the end! Was too full thanks to the prata lolz. 

 The pink one damn awkward and gay lah but I took it lah cause its damn awkward for a guy to have a pink polariod lolz. Yay I'm wearing my new denim skirt I bought at Bugis yesterday. Just realise I keep wearing this black top Lucinda gave because it's super easy to match. Okay good time catching up with this JC kid today bye

If you believe you won't fall,you won't

All these years,when things goes awry,you're the always the very first person that comes to my mind to look for comfort. There are times I still hesitate because you moved on and so do I. But then I remember you told me you would always be there so sometimes I just put my pride down and allow myself to be vulnerable and tell you what's wrong because you always make me feel better without fail.

''Just hang on and don't be afraid. If you believe you won't fall,you won't.You are my only source of random annoyance.Keep that in mind. '' 

If only I had make a much more rationale choice that year,maybe things would have been different but then again,who knows what would happen?

''Random annoyance. That's what we are was and always been.''

Dengue Fever

As suggested by the title,the answer is YES. I got dengue fever. The area around my neighborhood is a red spot.

On Friday,I was feeling extremely uncomfortable and I couldn't wait for marketing to end because I have a horrible migraine. I thought it's pretty normal because Marketing always seems to give me a headache. However,it got worst in the late afternoon when I was drenched on my way to the MRT station.

I went out that day and had dinner with NPL as I thought it will pass.

My fever refuse to subside and I went to see my family doctor on Sunday. He told me it might be a case of dengue as I have no cough and flu. I had instructions to head to the hospital on Tuesday if it had not subside till then.

I would wake up everyday around dawn with a horrendous migraine and my fever which subsided will raise back.

On Tuesday late afternoon,I went to KTPH A and E. My fever hadn't subside and I waited for hours and hours before the proper treatment. It was air-conditioned and it was very cold for me. Kaifeng came down to keep me company and bring me food. I had blood test and the doctor put me on drip and gave me fever medicine.

I was actually suppose to meet Shahira and Zaidi for a movie but we ended up meeting in KTPH instead. Zaidi was there for his internship interview.

I was out of KTPH around 9plus. Blood palette was around 138. It dropped to 124 yesterday when I visited the doctor yesterday. Bounced back to 160 today. No more fever and discomfort yay :-)
The worst part of dengue is the itch,it can really make you go crazy! Furthermore,my skin feels super sandy and red!

BIG THANKYOU to Yunxuan for accompanying me to the polyclinic yesterday and Kaifeng for coming down on Tuesday and waking up early today just to accompany me hehe.

Thanks all for your concern and let's fight the mosquitos together! Do your part by removing all sources of stagnant water! If you notice any rashes on your body and have prolonged fever,please visit a doctor immediately!

Save me she said
But no one seems to hear her

I'm so tired of my own thoughts
I think this is the perfect time to be sick
So I don't fucking overthink and get enough rest for real.