Zimplicity;

I stared at my computer screen and to be honest,I no longer know how to type my inner thoughts out for the world to see. It feels like I am naked and it's a very vulnerable feeling and I don't like that.

I've been occupying myself with meet-ups with friends and watching shows online but deep down I actually feel really lost and lonely. My semester one results is actually pretty horrendous and I only have myself to blame. I hadn't exactly been putting in a lot of effort and I'm just smoking through things like how I always did,praying for miracles.

When it rained during the night and there's thunderstorms,sometimes I'm afraid I might die and I wake up with my heart thumping with an ache,I'm afraid I'll never get the chance to tell you how I actually felt back then. 

I don't ever think I'll get the chance to say anything but I think that's okay. Maybe there's a place and time for everything.

Today I saw a picture... I liked the picture. It was a stinging pain,the type where your skin got cut and there's a deep wound and you're bathing and you avoid water on it but.. it felt like I was deliberately putting water and salt on my wounded self. LOL. Maybe I'm a sadist.

Been switching between running man and stairway to heaven and it's like equilibrium of feelings. When I watch running man during the day,it makes me extremely delirious. But too much of happiness makes life surreal so I switched to stairway to heaven at night,indulge in my own world of melancholy. The same way I indulge in cafes,clothes and many more.

This post is getting more and more out of point but yeah I'm just typing whatever that comes into my mind.

September has been really good actually.