Christmas Eve and Christmas 2013

I know my posts are getting lesser and lesser but it's because I'm becoming more and more lazy! Even on Dayre which is suppose to be very convenient for blogging,I tend to procrastinate and not blog on the day itself hehe. For those who follow on Dayre,you can skip this post because I would basically be posting the same photos!

Christmas Eve

 Celebrated my Christmas eve with my secondary school friends at Pasir Ris park! It's a tradition for PuayLin and Jianxing and me to come here every year but Yunxuan joined us this year! The more the merrier!

Before we went to Pasir Ris park,it was raining and I'm like FML because I really want to go cycling and I thought we would end up watching a movie but thank god the rain cleared up! We had Pizza Hut at Northpoint beforehand!

That is PL's chicken pasta on the top and YX's prawn pasta on the left and my turkey bacon cabonara on the right! JianXing didn't eat because he was sick and broke. #badluckjx

I think this deserves another mention because I always order this at Pasta Mania even though people find it cheesy but this.. at Pizza Hut,is DA SEXZ MAN. It's worth every penny. My plate is sparkling clean that day. For those who love bacon or likes cheese,you all should totally order this!!

Damn cui my hair and face LOL I think there's a better pic somewhere but pls just make do with this. #biker #punk #sports #nature #thisisnotinstagram #lame

It's damn fun to cycle with friends except that I'm always the last hehehe. YX and PL rented the couple bike cause YX don't know how to cycle and I was like shouting,''Biene,Oppa!'' It means sorry,sweetheart in Hangul because it reminds me of scenes in dramas. It's damn funny cause we were pretending that YX and JX were the main casts and PL and me were the workers. And my voice would always trail behind because I cycle super slow HAHAHA. and they will turn behind occasionally to rush me and check on me if i'm lost or anything

Basically this is it! A little history about our friendship! JianXing and I were from the same primary school but we weren't friends at all and have never been in the same class,maybe except mother tongue during some years. All four of us were in the same class during lower secondary and that's how we met and the three of them were in the same class for 4 years except me. I was in another class during upper sec (miserable times I wouldn't want to recall actually). So grateful to have them in my life,5 years already! I know next year we won't have much chance to meet up as both PL and JX will be taking their A levels. :((

Christmas

 Had dinner at Breeks Cafe at Habourfront centre!

 From left to right (for readers who don't know me!) LiYing,me,Vetina and Syafiqah

  

Drumlets and softshell crabs. Personally I don't like eating drumlets in restaurents because it's not shiok and I have to use my utensils. I prefer eating with my hands. But must act yi ge sophisticated what. LOLOLOL. Yay soft shell crabs! The first time I eat was with my drama friends and I even asked JinKheng,''How to take out the meat ah?'' LOLOLOL I didn't know you can eat everything on its own.

This is Liying's pasta. Wanted to order this at first but I had pasta the day before so I decided not to. Had a bite and I thank god I didn't order this because it tastes like olive oil. ~.~

Syafiqah's seafood pasta.. Not sure if it's good though but yeah..

Both Vetina and I ordered this! The chips were kinda dry for me and the chicken chop was okay I suppose,nothing special. 

So this basically sums up my christmas!!

Painful to know you could actually doubt that friendship. If only you could just let go of hatred and forgive people,life would be so much easier. And I tried so hard this year to make it up to you,even defending you when he said really nasty stuff about you at the expense of our whatsapp conversation in the coldest atmosphere and all I got back was doubts. 

Why can't everyone just get along peacefully?Or must I really lose that one friend in order to have peace in my life? It upsets me to know that I am causing someone so much misery and it was never my intention to. 

You might feel hurt but please understand that there are circumstances for me to. He hates you. I have no fucking idea why. And the other party wants to cut all ties with you since 2009. What am I suppose to do? Pull you into some fake pretentious friendship? 

I tried to be friends because I know how it feels like to feel so abandoned and so hateful towards people all the time because that was how I felt in 2007. All chained up and miserable. 

Find forgiveness and let go of hatred and I hope you will be happier. You might find this post bloody pretentious but I mean every single fucking word I said. 

Truth is out

The truth will set you free but first it will piss you off. 

Never in my life,I've met someone this scheming. Pushing people down to get where you want to go. I'm glad I had that conversation with him because the truth is out. 

You have never treated me as friend. All along I was one of your chess pieces,a tool to defend yourself.You told me he was immature but you are even more. I have lost all respect and trust towards you. 

I may be younger than you,but it doesn't mean you have the right to manipulate me this way. I hope someday you will realize how stupid your actions are and remember karma is a bitch,it will come back and bite you harder than you can ever imagine.

Thanks for teaching me a lesson about trust and I hope you can sleep well at night without your conscience pricking you. 

Whoever say time heals must not have lost someone before. Either that they didn't love the person hard enough. 

Went to your blogger profile and realized you've deleted your blogs. All of them. Now I have no traces of you left. I miss you. 

Very short update

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Have a good December ya all!