My imput on the term ' Friendship.'

I know all my blogposts are pretty boring but well, sometimes there are just certain things I have to get off my chest.

Well, there is a certain reason why I always tweet certain stuff.

''我想了好久好久，身为一个朋友，你为我做得不够多，如果她可以做到，你为什么就做不到，我如此无奈，你如此nonchalant.然而那两年来我觉得自己为你的付出是maximum efforts 而你这两年来对我却是bare minimum. 最奇怪的是我不会怨你，不会生气，可能这就是友谊的奇妙吧。''

For the two years in the same class as her, I always put in effort to be the best as a friend I could be.I listened to all her complaints and tried to make her a happy person.
But ever since we were in the different class,she barely put in any effort to sustain the friendship.
It's always me and me and me. Me initiating to hang out during recess or after school. Me asking her out. Me initiating a conversation on msn. Me this,me that.

Well,when I'm upset or whatever,she's not there. She's always busy. I can really feel it in my heart she's not making any effort. After those tussles and struggles for the past 1 year plus in school,I finally know who are my true friends. I'm not saying she's not a true friend,i just merely feel that she's not putting in enough efforts.

It's takes two to clap.

YX is in a different clique,yet the effort she puts in is 150%.
我庆幸有她这样一个朋友。

I decide to stop putting in so much effort because I always get nothing back from you.

You ever thought of the past and everything all starts haunting you,all at once?
Ever looked at yourself in the perspective of other people? And don't like yourself very much?
I think it's actually human nature to do so,however we should really stop living in the past.

It's stopping you from the happiness you ought to deserve.Admit it.

“Life is painful and messed up. It gets complicated at the worst of times, and sometimes you have no idea where to go or what to do. Lots of times people just let themselves get lost, dropping into a wide open, huge abyss. But that’s why we have to keep trying. We have to push through all that hurts us, work past all our memories that are haunting us. Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us strongest. A life without experience, in my opinion, is no life at all. And that’s why I tell everyone that, even when it hurts, never stop yourself from living.”

I am not a very fun person to be with cause I think too deeply at things. LOL.
twelve year old body,fifteen years old in truth,sixty years old at mind.
lololololol. not funny.

Ps. Love my skin,it's improving.

From time to time,I need to tell myself it's okay to be different from other people.
I realized my personality is very '' 孤僻‘’。
I found myself back recently and I hope she will continue to stay with me.
Listening to 三寸天堂 and the pattering of the rain.
Your name brought back thoughts yet no words came out of my mouth.

下一页你亲手写上的离别，由不得我拒绝。

这条路我们走得太匆忙，拥抱着并不真实的欲望。

来不及等不及回头欣赏，木兰香遮不住伤。

Three lines explains everything.

Collars

Shifted to a place where no one knows me and I feel so much safer and secured.
A place where I can finally just reveal how I truly feel instead of restricting myself.
A place to soar instead of being locked up in a cage like a pathetic parrot,saying whatever I want to please other people. I can tear off this fucking mask finally. Be melancholic when I am. Be happy when I am. Be a bundle of fury when I am.

Be me.

今天又是一个星期四。不知道是今年的第几个星期四。好恐怖。Happy March, I hope. 8 more months to go.