Yesterday I had a talk with a classmate on facebook at late night. Although we had been in the same class for 2 entire years in lower secondary,we barely talked due to the following reasons below.

•  We belonged in different cliques
• We couldn't get along and so even if we talked,it would be insults
• He has a relatively cold personality

And yeah,upper sec came and we were still in the same chinese class but there's not much chance to interact too. Then sec 4 came~ I was seated beside him and I was filled with dread, because we don't even freaking talk throughout the years but after sometime,i realised he has this humour about him and he's actually okay.

So I started a conversation with him yesterday and we ended up talking about relationships. Can't believe I'm actually confiding in him.

It was really very smoothing to talk to him and I don't know,it was nice of him to listen to everything. 

He also has his own problems,le sigh. okay bye.  

''because you told him not to leave, but you never did gave him an answer''

How much this sentence hurt. Oh god.

 

It's really ironic how I want exams to over during the exams period and when exams are over,I can't really think of anything to do. Did pretty lots of leisure reading. Woke up at 1plus yesterday and did some reading before deciding to meet up with JiaYing and Eric. Both of them were rotting at home too.

Bought my cardigan. The colours were pretty limited so I choose the colour that can be easily matched. If only there's grey or black!

We then headed over to AngMoKio Hub.. I kept on complaining I'm hungry and insisted on eating at Ah Mei's cafe. They say I'm forever hungry! -.-

Bought GongCha Green milk tea and 2 egg pratas! Really regretted buy 2 pratas cause I couldn't finish it. And they never give me curry sauce!!! :@

It's pretty hilarious cause there's this guy with a ''bomb'' hairstyle and pink outfit dancing with loud music behind him and he's doing all those weird expressions and dance movements. Suddenly he was behind NJY and me and Eric couldn't stop laughing.But NJY didn't notice his presence and gave us a bizarre look.'' EH why you all keep laughing???'' '' HAHAHHAHAHAA'' It was so hilarious I swear.

We then walked around and headed outside Angmokio hub. Not much to elaborate and soon NJY's family came and then me and Eric headed home. Bought Sushis home~

Bought this on Friday for my mum. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

HHEHEHE SELF SHOT. MY HAIR SUPER SILKY YESTERDAY WOOHOO

AND I AM GETTING MY BABY SOON. :D

bye.

Freedom Friday

      EXAMS ARE OVER!
            ( Well technically speaking,there's still O levels but who cares,let me bask in my temporary happiness first.) 

So I had my last paper today,which is Science MCQ paper, 20 questions of Chemistry and Physics each. It lasted for one hour only! :D I know I screwed up MYE a lot but I am gonna buck up  for prelims. Mark my words. But actually I'm really scared I won't have the motivation and drive to study for O levels after examinations.I always have the '' must work hard'' motivation during exam periods but after that I'll cut myself some slack and not work hard. Le sigh. I know my blog has been pretty wordy so I took loads of pictures using my ipod touch today to jazz my blog up a little if not it will be extremely boring.

Hehe, got the antique china feel or not? If only I could visit the real palace in China! 

I actually made plans to hang out with JiaYing but she wasn't feeling well so I headed to Northpoint with Yunxuan and Jiawen. The worst decision we make was to walk to Northpoint! The heat was really irritating and I AGREED to walking because it was still pretty early and the weather was cooling initally.. Who knew..

 ROAR! The Qilin outside the chinese temple.

I took a photo of this flower and Jiawen say I suaku,never see wild flower before. -_- People want act artistic cannot ah?

Then Jiawen suddenly posed in front of my ipod and dragged Yunxuan. LOLOLOL SEE YUNXUAN SO RELUCTANT TO TAKE PHOTO!! HAHA.

But the short journey to Northpoint despite the heat was actually pretty enjoyable with Jiawen's nonsensical ramblings about her childhood,talking about Winx Club and Happy Meal.

My hot tea and Sausage Mcgriddles with egg. Tastes god damn heavenly woohoo. There's my hashbrown behind my hot tea. It's so shy that it gotta hide from the camera. LOL.

I was the only one eating while the two girls were just listening to music with Jiawen playing games on my ipod. We then walked around Northpoint aimlessly since majority of the shops were not opened yet. YunXuan bought her soymilk and Jiawen left for home promptly.

Me and Yunxuan then headed for the library and we had a pretty long talk. 1 hour. Actually it's damn long because we talked really fast. Our speed is like vrooom vrooom vrooom. I told her my dilemma about JCs and polytechnics. All my close friends are heading for the JC route as it's the most conventional way to University and it's a safer route. But I told her I know I won't be happy if I'm in JC but at the same time I do not want my future to be ''dangerous'' if you know what I meant. To slog it out and endure 2 years of hardship or choose I route which I think I will enjoy but face the consequences later? I hate unknowns,sigh.

But then again, she shared her experience about what happened 2 years ago. Her entire clique received the pink slip,the triple science option. The yearned for option,the elite option. Turns out they were struggling inside whether to choose it for not. All four choose it in the end and PY and Yunxuan who intially was reluctant to be in triple sciences dropped biology while KY and YM who decided to slog it out with a firm stand still continue to take triple sciences.

I think I know myself too well, I won't do well if I'm unhappy. And you may ask,how would I know I would be unhappy? Well, I hated rules and regulations and JCs .. is like secondary school,the system of education there. I hate being under pressure and frantically living life,doing things I don't enjoy. But at the same time I ask myself this question,what if my determination died off halfway and I lose passion in the course I take? LE SIGH I should stop thinking about all this stuff. Follow my heart when I receive my results next year!

YunXuan told me she actually enjoyed each inter-class as it bonds the class more.She'll miss 4e4 when she graduate. I do wish I will miss this last lap,this class. I really do. But well,I long accepted the fact I can never fit in this class. I look down on people who refuses to work hard and blames other people for it. I hate being in an environment where the air is just filled with negative attitudes and laziness. But well, this school did give me good memories too though. :)

Borrowed 3 books and bought mother's day gift! The skincare product actually costs $60 but I bought it for only $15 from Sasa. Special promotion for mother day's I guess. ANDDDDDD I did a survey for the FACESHOP and got a free sample. Some toner and emulsion thingy, a little box with 2 tiny bottles but oh well,I love free stuff.

No tuition tomorrow,wonder how I should spend my day! ^^ BYE.

What is life?

Weijie asked this question on my class facebook group and it got overwhelming responses. I can finally understand why I cannot connect with this class. The gap of our perspectives are simply too far. There were answers like '' Its just about having FUN''. 

Well,I have no right to judge people's answers to that very ''deep'' question as different people see things from different views.

To me,life is about making use of the time you have on Earth to discover your passions and pursue your dreams. To live each day without regrets and make use of the time you have wisely. To encourage and bring the best out of everyone around you. To overcome struggles and enjoy the beauty of life.


My answer seems cliche does'nt it? Maybe it is. 


Routes in life. As human beings,its natural to want to have a route that will benefit you the most in the end. We like to link success in monetary terms. We like to link the society's ideal term of success as happiness. To be happy, the society says you have to have high education, you must graduate from university,you must have a good job with high end salary. How many of these successful (so-called) are truly happy with their job? Do they gain satisfication and fufillment from their jobs? 


Sometimes its really difficult to follow your heart when all you seemed is to go the opposite direction of what the majority is going after.When I think about all these stuff sometimes,fear really consumed me and swallow me whole. It pains me literally to think I would fail in life. Who doesn't? 


I'm currently at this stage of my life where I'm at a crossroad, don't know which direction to continue walking. To face reality or to pursue dreams? 


Why am I born in this era anyway? pffft. I would totally prefer to be born in an era where you can succeed with just hard work,where people's mind were less complex,where things were simpler and when people actually bothered about caring one another. 


le sigh. I'm such an overthinker at times. Too deep for my own good at times.
  

我顿时为他感到无比的难过，他的人生仿佛风彩可是我到认为活到了这把年岁却不知道人生的真正意义，是如此的可悲.

Life's footsteps

Today I am going to spend a little more time and effort to blog. :) 

I had the most meaningful exam on Friday,which is my higher Chinese paper 2 exam.It was a really worthwhile exam as I literally learned life lessons in every single essay in the paper.It was a well set paper. I know you guys are probably going to yawn but let me share with you some of the things that were in the paper.

Once upon a time,there was a young CEO driving his brand new BMW at a relatively high speed along the alley of luxurious bungalows.He had to be extremely careful as kids playing along the alley  may suddenly rush to the middle so he slowed down whenever he feels that there is a high possibility of kids running out. 

Just when his car drove past a group of kids,a little kid used a brick to hit his car door.He braked his car furiously and drove his car back to the spot where his door was hit by the brick.

He jumped out of his car and grabbed the little kid,he pushed him against his car door and exclaimed:'' Why did you do that? Did you know what you just did?'' He then hollered:'' DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HAVE TO PAY TO REPAIR THIS NEW CAR? WHY EXACTLY DID YOU DO THAT?''

The little kid pleaded,'' I'm sorry sir. I didn't know what else to do.''

'' I threw that brick as no one would stop.'' He said as his tears slide down on the car door.

He then continued,'' My brother has fallen from his wheelchair and I have no ability to carry him back.''

'' Can you help me you carry him up? He's injured and he's too heavy,I can't carry him.'' The little boy chocked out

The young CEO was touched by his words.He carried the boy's brother and helped him into his wheelchair.He then took out his handkerchief  to wipe the injuries and ensure that the brother was okay.

The little boy said gratefully,'' Thank you sir! God bless you!''

The young CEO watched as the young boy pushed his older brother back. He slowly walked to his car and decided not to fix it. He wants that dent to remind him that '' do not wait till other people throw bricks at you before you realised that your life's footsteps has been too fast. ''

When life wants to communicate with your soul,if you do not have the time,you have two options. 1.Listen to the voice inside 2. Let the bricks hit you

Ask yourself this,have your life been too busy and fast to the extend you neglect your loved ones so much to the extend you are doubting your love for them?

ARGHHHH DIRECT TRANSLATION IS SO TIRING. K BYE I HOPE YOU LEARNED SOMETHING.

Cause I know how despair feels like. Helpless yet there's nothing you could do except to watch yourself die.

At least I managed to act nonchalant today, acting skills came to a good use today.