There has to be a time when you realize the bigger things in life.
Contrary to the picture,I am not a sophisticated person. I am a clumsy dwarf and my English is often ridiculed in real life. Thank god for internet.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Thursday, January 10, 2013
My heart hurts so badly.I wished I was a dust particle so I don't have to face anything. Loser me. Please don't talk to me when you don't understand me or how I feel.
For those who held me strong in times of my struggles,I will repay you back in this lifetime definitely if i have the chance. If not,if fate allows,the next lifetime. I love all of you.
For those who held me strong in times of my struggles,I will repay you back in this lifetime definitely if i have the chance. If not,if fate allows,the next lifetime. I love all of you.
O LEVELS RESULTS EVE
Working as an admin for a law firm and I took up a job as a tutor. I feel so stressed yet again and I feel like my anxiety disorder is back again. This sucks.
I've been avoiding O LEVEL RESULTS for as long as I can remember. The only good thing about collecting Os results is that I don't need to go work.
Work make me realize how blissful life is. In school or at home.
I am having a migraine now. FML.
Funny how my fear seems to disappear now. Maybe I will start crying before I receive my results.
I often have this image on me jumping down a building on my o level results day but I know it won't happen because i don't want my bones to turn into powder.
Whatever comes my way will be due to my choice made in 2012,no point pondering. goodnight.
I've been avoiding O LEVEL RESULTS for as long as I can remember. The only good thing about collecting Os results is that I don't need to go work.
Work make me realize how blissful life is. In school or at home.
I am having a migraine now. FML.
Funny how my fear seems to disappear now. Maybe I will start crying before I receive my results.
I often have this image on me jumping down a building on my o level results day but I know it won't happen because i don't want my bones to turn into powder.
Whatever comes my way will be due to my choice made in 2012,no point pondering. goodnight.
Monday, January 7, 2013
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Quick Update
LOL went swimming with Syafiqah,Liying and Saif and this was taken in KFC. I am wearing my swimsuit but Syafiqah told me to wrap myself up like I'm naked like that. I put on a ''I'm being tortured'' expression but I'm struggling not to laugh hahaha.
We waited for 4 freaking hours to swim due to the unforseen weather conditions.
:P
Visited ODDS with Saras and John. Nice seeing all those juniors again! :)
On the way to some wedding in Malasia with my family and cousin and aunt.
Will not be updating so frequently since I'm starting work at some lawyer's firm tomorrow. 9am-6pm. :(
Hello,waking up early and squeezing in MRT. I hope I will have a better working experience working there as compared to Pets Station! Endure for the sake of my iphone5! And I'm gonna get RED by Taylor Swift if I have the money!
I am so afraid. Afraid on that day. I see myself crying,not knowing where to go.
Monday, December 31, 2012
New Year Resolution
I typed one whole chunk on MRT and I'm gonna continue now.
Since everyone is making new year resolutions,I shall make mine too. Today is the last day of 2012.
I always make very typical new year resolutions. Very typical like study hard and stop procrastinating but I kind of failed every year.
This year,I'm gonna make 2 simple ones.
1)少计较，少比较
Bear less grudges,compare lesser
While I was in Taiwan,my tour guide asked the tour group which 宗教 (religion) we cannot believe in. There were a lot of wild guesses and speculations. In the end,when the answers revealed, it was 计较 and 比较. I know some of you might be thinking what have this got to do with religion. Now,if you're Chinese,pronounce the words. I have no idea how to explain but this has something to do with the pronunciation of the words.
I find it quite true. We are often unhappy as we like to compare ourselves with other people. Let's take a fish and a bird for example. A fish can swim but a bird can't and vice versa. Okay maybe there are exceptions but I mean the majority.I'm no good at animals. Lol. What I am trying to say is we all have different strengths and flaws,no point comparing.What you have,the other party might not have.
Other than this,we also like to compare in terms of material. Like what we often hear in real life,'' Aiyo I'm still using this lousy Nokia phone leh ( this is just an example,i like Nokia phones :) ) ,even primary school kids have iphone'' This reminds me of a quote the Emperor said in the show Scarlet Heart,'' Forget what you have lost and appreciate what you have.'' I'm actually quite guilty of this because I always take things for granted.
Bearing grudges. Major guilty of this. I am very 小气 (petty) and I get pissed off very easily.I find it hard to forgive and forget. But bearing grudges is very unhealthy for the mind and relationships with people and destroy friendships easily. So I will try my best to bear lesser grudges with people.
2)To treat others with sincerity and kindness
I realized ... it is quite a terrible feeling when others treat you in a hostile manner. And people as they grow older,shower you with fake words. Words that you want to hear to make yourself feel good. 以真诚对人，将心比心。
That's about it! Goodbye! Gonna meet Syafiqah tonight for countdown at Vivocity. ^_^
Since everyone is making new year resolutions,I shall make mine too. Today is the last day of 2012.
I always make very typical new year resolutions. Very typical like study hard and stop procrastinating but I kind of failed every year.
This year,I'm gonna make 2 simple ones.
1)少计较，少比较
Bear less grudges,compare lesser
While I was in Taiwan,my tour guide asked the tour group which 宗教 (religion) we cannot believe in. There were a lot of wild guesses and speculations. In the end,when the answers revealed, it was 计较 and 比较. I know some of you might be thinking what have this got to do with religion. Now,if you're Chinese,pronounce the words. I have no idea how to explain but this has something to do with the pronunciation of the words.
I find it quite true. We are often unhappy as we like to compare ourselves with other people. Let's take a fish and a bird for example. A fish can swim but a bird can't and vice versa. Okay maybe there are exceptions but I mean the majority.I'm no good at animals. Lol. What I am trying to say is we all have different strengths and flaws,no point comparing.What you have,the other party might not have.
Other than this,we also like to compare in terms of material. Like what we often hear in real life,'' Aiyo I'm still using this lousy Nokia phone leh ( this is just an example,i like Nokia phones :) ) ,even primary school kids have iphone'' This reminds me of a quote the Emperor said in the show Scarlet Heart,'' Forget what you have lost and appreciate what you have.'' I'm actually quite guilty of this because I always take things for granted.
Bearing grudges. Major guilty of this. I am very 小气 (petty) and I get pissed off very easily.I find it hard to forgive and forget. But bearing grudges is very unhealthy for the mind and relationships with people and destroy friendships easily. So I will try my best to bear lesser grudges with people.
2)To treat others with sincerity and kindness
I realized ... it is quite a terrible feeling when others treat you in a hostile manner. And people as they grow older,shower you with fake words. Words that you want to hear to make yourself feel good. 以真诚对人，将心比心。
That's about it! Goodbye! Gonna meet Syafiqah tonight for countdown at Vivocity. ^_^
Goodbye 2012
2012 felt so fast and secondary school life has come to an end.
2012,is about making choices. A lot of choices.
Like DPA. Going there even though I know I'm gonna reject the offer in the end. Sending a heart to heart message to someone you hadn't talk to in months. Forgiving a friend who hurt you badly and not exposing her because you want to salvage the friendship.
2012,is about mustering courage. The courage to accept things. The courage to accept the past is never coming back. The courage to know people has moved on with their lives and I need to do the same too.
2012,is about facing fears. O levels seemed so far away. I can't believe I am done with it.
2012,is about dealing with parts of yourself you don't really like and knowing that it is alright to break down and cry. I will never forget that awful period where i had to deal with anxiety and insomniac nights and go through counseling in school,missing parts of lessons and feeling like everyone in class is judging me.
2012 is finding out not many people have it easy but they still make it an obligation and have the will to stay strong. Huisin traveling from Malaysia to Singapore for education's sake,waking up at 4pm everyday. SuanKheng taking pride in things she do. Weijie working and juggling studies at the same time. Many unsound heros.
2012 is knowing who has been genuinely there for you all this while.
4 very important people I would like to thank.
Yun Xuan for just being you. For being selfless when it comes to friends. For listening to whatever bullshit and drama stories I always have.For telling me I would spend my entire life tweeting and shopping in the 4th dimension at 10th and a half floor -_- For genuinely treating people nicely with all your heart. For letting me know what truly matters in life.
Shahira for taking effort to encourage me for O levels. Listening to my rants about a very awful teacher. For addressing my insecurites and reassuring me things will turn out fine. For doting on me when you can spend the same amount of love on others as well,but you choose to spend it on me. For those phone calls at night.
Heidi for being meek and submissive. To allow me to bully you. For eating your sweets when I'm horrendously bored during lessons. For listening to all my complaints even though maybe you're very sick of it. For accepting Zhi Ling for being Zhi Ling. For understanding my pain of how it felt to be an outcast in class HAHAHAHAHAH forever alone lah both of us. For allowing me to be a very selfish person
Jiawen for being stupid and stupid and stupid. Just kidding. Jiawen for.. treating lowlow very well. For making me laugh at your idioticness which is damn frustrating yet hilarious at time. For telling me some things aren't worth it anymore. For letting me understand acceptance is the key to many things. For being so nice to me when I'm so fucking moody at times. For just being my long-faced bff,for trying to see the best in people most of the times ( maybe not......)
And 2012 is gonna teach me how to bade goodbye properly.
2013 will be a better year,hopefully.
2012,is about making choices. A lot of choices.
Like DPA. Going there even though I know I'm gonna reject the offer in the end. Sending a heart to heart message to someone you hadn't talk to in months. Forgiving a friend who hurt you badly and not exposing her because you want to salvage the friendship.
2012,is about mustering courage. The courage to accept things. The courage to accept the past is never coming back. The courage to know people has moved on with their lives and I need to do the same too.
2012,is about facing fears. O levels seemed so far away. I can't believe I am done with it.
2012,is about dealing with parts of yourself you don't really like and knowing that it is alright to break down and cry. I will never forget that awful period where i had to deal with anxiety and insomniac nights and go through counseling in school,missing parts of lessons and feeling like everyone in class is judging me.
2012 is finding out not many people have it easy but they still make it an obligation and have the will to stay strong. Huisin traveling from Malaysia to Singapore for education's sake,waking up at 4pm everyday. SuanKheng taking pride in things she do. Weijie working and juggling studies at the same time. Many unsound heros.
2012 is knowing who has been genuinely there for you all this while.
4 very important people I would like to thank.
Yun Xuan for just being you. For being selfless when it comes to friends. For listening to whatever bullshit and drama stories I always have.For telling me I would spend my entire life tweeting and shopping in the 4th dimension at 10th and a half floor -_- For genuinely treating people nicely with all your heart. For letting me know what truly matters in life.
Shahira for taking effort to encourage me for O levels. Listening to my rants about a very awful teacher. For addressing my insecurites and reassuring me things will turn out fine. For doting on me when you can spend the same amount of love on others as well,but you choose to spend it on me. For those phone calls at night.
Heidi for being meek and submissive. To allow me to bully you. For eating your sweets when I'm horrendously bored during lessons. For listening to all my complaints even though maybe you're very sick of it. For accepting Zhi Ling for being Zhi Ling. For understanding my pain of how it felt to be an outcast in class HAHAHAHAHAH forever alone lah both of us. For allowing me to be a very selfish person
Jiawen for being stupid and stupid and stupid. Just kidding. Jiawen for.. treating lowlow very well. For making me laugh at your idioticness which is damn frustrating yet hilarious at time. For telling me some things aren't worth it anymore. For letting me understand acceptance is the key to many things. For being so nice to me when I'm so fucking moody at times. For just being my long-faced bff,for trying to see the best in people most of the times ( maybe not......)
And 2012 is gonna teach me how to bade goodbye properly.
2013 will be a better year,hopefully.
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