Goodbye 2012

2012 felt so fast and secondary school life has come to an end.

 2012,is about making choices. A lot of choices.

 Like DPA. Going there even though I know I'm gonna reject the offer in the end. Sending a heart to heart message to someone you hadn't talk to in months. Forgiving a friend who hurt you badly and not exposing her because you want to salvage the friendship.

2012,is about mustering courage. The courage to accept things. The courage to accept the past is never coming back. The courage to know people has moved on with their lives and I need to do the same too.

2012,is about facing fears. O levels seemed so far away. I can't believe I am done with it.

2012,is about dealing with parts of yourself you don't really like and knowing that it is alright to break down and cry. I will never forget that awful period where i had to deal with anxiety and insomniac nights and go through counseling in school,missing parts of lessons and feeling like everyone in class is judging me.

2012 is finding out not many people have it easy but they still make it an obligation and have the will to stay strong. Huisin traveling from Malaysia to Singapore for education's sake,waking up at 4pm everyday. SuanKheng taking pride in things she do. Weijie working and juggling studies at the same time. Many unsound heros.

2012 is knowing who has been genuinely there for you all this while.

4 very important people I would like to thank.

 Yun Xuan for just being you. For being selfless when it comes to friends. For listening to whatever bullshit and drama stories I always have.For telling me I would spend my entire life tweeting and shopping in the 4th dimension at 10th and a half floor -_-  For genuinely treating people nicely with all your heart. For letting me know what truly matters in life.

Shahira for taking effort to encourage me for O levels. Listening to my rants about a very awful teacher. For addressing my insecurites and reassuring me things will turn out fine. For doting on me when you can spend the same amount of love on others as well,but you choose to spend it on me. For those phone calls at night.

Heidi for being meek and submissive. To allow me to bully you. For eating your sweets when I'm horrendously bored during lessons. For listening to all my complaints even though maybe you're very sick of it. For accepting Zhi Ling for being Zhi Ling. For understanding my pain of how it felt to be an outcast in class HAHAHAHAHAH forever alone lah both of us. For allowing me to be a very selfish person

Jiawen for being stupid and stupid and stupid. Just kidding. Jiawen for.. treating lowlow very well. For making me laugh at your idioticness which is damn frustrating yet hilarious at time. For telling me some things aren't worth it anymore. For letting me understand acceptance is the key to many things. For being so nice to me when I'm so fucking moody at times. For just being my long-faced bff,for trying to see the best in people most of the times ( maybe not......)


And 2012 is gonna teach me how to bade goodbye properly. 

2013 will be a better year,hopefully.