Just some thoughts on death

Yesterday night,someone opposite my block committed suicide. Out of curiosity,I went and have a look together with my mum and younger brother. Nope,we didn't go down. We weren't that courageous. I could see the body from my blk. (Ps. I live at the 10th floor.)

There were speculations that it was a kid and he/she had accidentally fallen down. There were also assumptions he/she is an adult but I do not know. The body was too vague from my point of view.

You know in those typical mediacorp drama serials,they always showcase someone committing suicide and the family members/loved ones crying by the side? I always thought,''wah very pro,can cry until macham like the person really die like that.'' I could hear very loud crying from where I was(yeah the sound travel all the way up to the 10th floor). It was the kind of crying that felt so .. to be honest i don't know how to describe,like it literally shoots through your heart and makes you feel like crying together with the person,as though your tears could ease some of the pain. It felt so tragic,so heartbreaking,so hopeless. If you put the most veteran actor crying beside the person,I swear the veteran actor would be in shame.

There was someone pumping her heart non-stop and pretty soon there was a big crowd. Then the ambulance and police came.

I then found out from one of my seniors that the girl was her cousin's best friend. She's only sixteen.

Sixteen,imagine all these she didn't manage to experience yet. There's no chance to pull an all nighter for SS O levels,no chance to tell her friends she's nervous and feeling unprepared,no chance to experience JC/Poly life,no chance to marry Mr Right and have children or cuddle her grandchildren on rainy days and tell them bedtime stories. Everything gone when she plunged down.

I heard that she had fought with her mum beforehand and she was on the phone with her grandma and her grandma was rushing down to her house to persuade her not to do anything silly but she was too late. I also heard that she was adopted and was the only child and her ''father'' passed away 8 years ago. This means that the mother would be left all alone...

I have no right to judge her decision to end her life,be it of accumulated depression or a moment of impulse,I'm sure her actions has scarred many of her closed ones for life. It's definitely going to take a very very very long time to heal. Or maybe not in this lifetime.

Death felt so far away because we are all alive and breathing,living young and free. But when death is placed explicitly in your face,you will really reflect and think. Appreciate your friends and family and tell them I love you because you won't know when is the last time you can say that,anything could happen. Whatever you want to do,do it. Don't be afraid because on the brink of death,you can then tell yourself at least I didn't let myself down in this lifetime.

7 facts about me :)

Actually I typed a pretty long post but it got deleted but never mind,I shall retype the post for ya all! JiaYing tagged me in Instagram to do this facts list so I shall do it and you guys can to know a little more about me!

1)I'm a shopaholic! I love shopping and I can never get enough of buying clothes! I love retail therapy although it's really bad for my wallet. I also buy a lot of useless knickknacks like notebooks which I don't even use most of the times and accessories like earrings and necklaces. Actually I read somewhere that shopping produces a kind of hormones which makes you feel good emotionally!

2)I LOVE visiting cute cafes! There's just something special about spending your entire day in a cafe with good ambiance,sipping your coffee away and catching up with your friends.

3)I love food and fashion photography. But I don't own a DSLR. :( I love taking pictures of my food and my outfits hahahah. I love visiting lookbook for fashion inspiration and I follow a lot of people on Instagram who post regularly about food and fashion!

4)I visit blogs a lot! I love finding out about other people's lives hahhaha! Here is a list of blogs I frequent and find them interesting!

• http://xiaxue.blogspot.sg/
• http://bongqiuqiu.blogspot.sg/
• http://cheeserland.com/
• http://fourfeetnine.com/
• http://sophiewillocq.blogspot.sg/
• http://www.joyfulskies.blogspot.sg/
• http://itscamilleco.com/
• http://jemmawei.com/
• http://wakaenino-waka.blogspot.sg/
• http://www.paledivision.com/

5) I go on Youtube a lot too! My favorite youtubers which I have pledged my loyalty to over the past few years are BubzBeauty,Jen from Clothes Encounter and Chriselle Lim  .

I love Bubz so so much! She's such an inspiration and super humble even though she's famous! Her make up tutorials are really good but I've been viewing more of her vlogs this year! She just gotten married recently! She's from Northern Ireland but currently residing in HongKong.

Here's a vlog from Bubz!


And another one if you aren't interested in her personal life.

This is Jen from Clothes Encounters! She's of Korea descendant and she's born and raised in Los Angeles.I love her fashion sense! It's very quirky and one of a kind! Definitely not typical at all.


This is a sponsored video and Runway Bandits is a blogshop based in Singapore so you guys can check them out if you want to!!

This is Chriselle Lim and just like Jen,she's of Korea descendant too!!


 Here's a video on how to style a basic white T-shirt! I'm sure each and everyone of you have a basic white T-shirt hidden somewhere in yout wardrobe right!
You can visit her at her blog at http://thechrisellefactor.com/ !

6) I love drinking green tea with French Vanilla creme from ShareTea! It's my absolute favorite drink and never fails to calm me down after a hectic day in school!

7)Obsessed with denim items recently from tops to skirts to vests and almost everything denim.

Really can't wait to buy one when my exams are over. And a light denim skirt too. :>

Okay that's about it. Sorry JiaYing there's only 7 facts but I think I typed quite a lot.

Happy Birthday to you.
In 2010,the blessing was of a young foolish heart.
In 2011,the greetings was of pinning hopes and reluctance.
In 2012,it was of a thread of holding on.
In 2013,I wished with the intention of wishing someone I once had feelings for.

生日快乐。

Ps. I spent a long time on this blog post about fashion and stuff but it got deleted thanks to my stupidity and brother.

Hari Raya 2013 (No idea what to caption)

I am a bundle of tired cells,ready to collapse on my bed anytime. But I shall blog because I'm afraid I'll forget whatever that has happened today.

I wanted to wear that skirt which I bought when I was out with Jiawen but then I changed my mind because there's no proper tops to match it with so ... in the midst of changing,my skirt dropped and there's a green bottle on the floor and some unknown substance landed on my skirt. It then occurred to me... it's not plain water because why would my mum place plain water in a green bottle in a toilet..

To my horror,my skirt...

fucking discolored by the bleach. The unknown substance is bleach which my mum used to clean the toilet bowl. FML. I only worn it once to school before. Totally rage mode today.

Anyway,the POH LI LOW NEO clique is supposed to watch The Girl In Pinafore today at Junction 8 but when I checked there's only one seat left so we ended up not queuing and we quickly made our way to NEX because there's seats supposedly from what I checked but we ended up not watching because all the seats were taken up in the end. :(

and so we had our lunch at Hot Tomato after empty trips and a super long discussion where to eat. The set for $3.50. The mushroom soup was kind of diluted,not really up to standard.

Anyway,something super epic happened! JianXing sat on a puddle of water! He sat down on his chair before exclaiming out loud! HAHAHHAHA it was so damn epic. He only realized when his pants absorbed the water! I even saw some waiters snickering!

 

My baked rice on the left while YunXuan's baked rice is on the right. I totally had no idea I was ordering baked rice. I thought it was some roast chicken meat piece. :( 

This was taken using JianXing's S4. The pasta is PuayLin's while the mixed grill is JianXing's. I swear it looked super delicious! Totally going to try it the next time I have my meal at Hot Tomato!

And then we shopped around and took photos at this sky park place where there's kids playing with water and a doggy playgrounds for dogs LOL.

Can you see the toner value?

I think there are some nicer photos in JianXing's phone which he hadn't sent to me yet. But I shall post more next time cause I'm so exhausted right now. Goodnight!!

Ps. The flowers were JianXing's idea and at first it was arranged in such a manner that it looked like it was meant for the dead. -_-

Ps. He sent the photos!

 There's still other unglams but I don't think I will post it up. BYE

‘從前從前　有個人愛妳很久
　但偏偏　風漸漸　把距離吹得好遠’

People like you makes me cringe

People like you and her make me realize how wonderful my friends are. No deception,no lies,no hidden masks. Just them genuinely being friends with me.

Do you honestly think I don't know you were trying to fish for information? Fuck you,I was once the top student for Social Studies. My SBQ skills are still there.

ACJC play

Had dinner with John,Gerald(or Francis,I have no idea what to call him. Sometimes I call him Francis and sometimes I call him Gerald) and JinKheng at Singapore Poly. Singapore Poly is so beautiful(I have no idea what descriptive word to use) as compared to NYP! And everyone there is so well dressed and I think lazy sloths like me will be judged badly since I like to wear just a T-shirt with denim shorts to school.

Anyway,they had subway while I ordered KFC and something epic happened.
Cashier:'' What drinks would you like?''
Me:''Coke.''
Cashier:''Oh you mean pepsi.''

LOL fml seriously I didn't know I was drinking pepsi all my life when I ordered KFC.

We got lost on the way to ACJC. Alighted at Buona Vista and we stopped at this road junction and we tried to find our way there using google map. We wanted to cab there because time was running out but the cab rejected us. In the end we asked the security guard and we ran all the way to ACJC.

'' WHO THE HELL PLACES A SCHOOL IN AN ISOLATED AREA???''
''Well,this one does.''

Imagine running after a heavy meal. I reached ACJC sweating and panting and the worst part was that we had to climb the stairs to our seats because the show has started.

Vaithesis and me. It has been so many months since I last saw her!

DRUNK MUTHU and me.

My dear Farah! Acted well as usual!

A group photo of us! AISS ODDS batch 2012! 2011 for JinKheng and Vaithesis though!

My outfit of the night!

Another epic incident is that Ms Liao asked John to open the gate but no one helped him to bring his laptop down so he left his laptop in the bus and Ms Liao had to call the china bus driver to drive back to school again.

Wanted to head for supper with them but it was kinda late already and I don't think mama would be too happy about me reaching home late. Had a good night out nevertheless.

It would be nice if I could see you.