Went to my little ray of sunshine's house today to teach her profit,loss and trading account :)
Camwhored using my ipod touch after that :D


I wished I had my own room too.

Sometimes feelings are more easily expressed through other people's words.


There's 3 more days of examinations..
4 more papers to go.
POA,Chemistry,Amaths paper 1 and Emaths paper1.
Sigh,all maths and science :(
I feel pretty confident towards today's English paper 2 and HCL paper 2.
JIAYOUS LZL.

I left section B and C mostly blank for Physics.
Kind of screwed up Emaths paper 2 too.
Burst into tears after that.
I really want to snap out of this depression thing.

Sigh.
I never feel so screwed up for exams before.
Never in my whole life.
I hate myself for giving in to negative feelings and laziness and procrastination.

My goal last year.
Be happy,score good grades.

I failed.

I am procrastinating right now.FUCK LAAAA.
LOWZHILING,YOU REALLY SUCK SIA.


I never felt so scared before.
Fear crept in my mind like a monster,devouring each bubble of happiness in me.

I have this tendency to slide towards depression.
I push people away after we get close.
Cause in the end they'll leave.
So what's the point of remaining close only to get hurt in the end?

But I refused to be held back,drag down,or defeated.
Cause I am strong.


September 23 - October 23 [Libra]
From a calender that someone just given, ''The basic Libran nature is diplomatic and charming.Libras have an idealistic and generally peace loving nature.They are easygoing and sociable,in general.On the other side of the scale,Libras are known to be indecisive and changeable,gullible and easily affected.''

Everyone is still there,but they are no longer making appearances in my life.We are drifting apart since this year,some maturing while some remains the same.Everyone that was once a large part of me faded away from everything I once knew.They've faded into the darkness and left with the lights.I've been feeling down and a bit uncomfortable with you,you and you..Everyone I thought I knew so well drifted away into their own heads and are keeping their mouths locked tight.We're no longer sharing stories and keeping in contact as often as we should.I see no effort being put in.We say our simple hellos and ask how the other is doing and that's the end of our conversation.Awkward silences whenever I'm there sometimes,cause I don't have anything much in common to talk about.Sometimes it's like I'm not even important in anyone's lives.I feel so unimportant and insignificant at times.We're growing distant with everyday that passes.

I guess,that's life uh?

Don't think you guys can see this clearly but yeah,this is a photograph of my class in 2010.
Miss 2e3.
Even though it's like 4 months already,I still miss 2e3.
3e2 is so awfully quiet and BORING.
I don't think I'll ever love 3e2.
It's just lessons and lessons everyday.
Boring to the max.
Even the jokes aren't as funny as last year.
We have jokers who create high standard laughter last year.
Tsk,my class?
Boring boring boring max.
Plus there's no one to really motivate me to study.
So I motivate myself.


I don't love 3e2.

How could I even complain about my life last year? How could I ?