I am on a hiatus. Hope you are doing well. 
Whoever you are reading this,I'm good and I hope you are too.
I will be back someday.

And I was always injuring myself with my politeness. I didn't know how to stop people from influencing me with their negativity. I didn't know how to say stop,I'm tired. Because for me it was an obligation to help someone heal when they are injured. It is my duty as a friend. 

I got angry at myself during tutorial today. For not being brave enough to say I had enough. For wallowing in self pity when I am the one who didn't know how to stop someone because I was afraid they will be hurt. Hurt by my words. Hurt by the fact that I am letting them know I am weary. 

And for once I felt like someone noticed.

Recently I've gotten to know someone who's very similar to a friend I knew in the past. As much as I try to tell myself they are two different individuals,sometimes I can't help but to compare them. I see The Old Friend's shadow and it scares me. 

Oh,and some of my friends are in army whereas a majority are taking their national examinations this year. JJ has flew off to Japan for 3 months as well. Some people say the older you grow,the more your friends will be taken away from you. Is that what they mean? 
Year 2 is really mundane and stagnant as compared to year 1 and sometimes a selfish part of me do wish that people would have more time for me. 

I don't really ask for much. Maybe just better concentration in class and peace in my heart. And for myself to love myself more. Demons,they are real. Sometimes they live in you.

Rider's cafe

Okay hi. Decided to go Rider's Cafe with Syafiqah on Labor's Day. I know.. I said cafe food are way too pricey and overrated but it's always interesting to visit new places and take good food photographs lol. We went to Clementi and took a cab to Rider's Cafe because it's located in a super ulu area. Bukit Timah Saddle Club if I'm not wrong.

Taken in the cab. We had a really good conversation with the cabbie. Actually I started the conversation hahahah. I love cabbies with good service lol.

We switched to the window seats because I wanted a view of a better scenery but the smell of horses' poo does get overwhelming. There is no aircon in the cafe which I am really irritated about. ''Eh nevermind lah,countryside feel.'' NOO I WANT MY AIRCON

Tacos and Salted Caramel Icecream with sweet biscuit. I forgot the name of the icecream already. The icecream was normal vanilla icecream lor and the biscuit was awesome. But after a while it makes me wanna vomit because it's too sweet. The chicken tacos was alright I suppose. Love the purple colour thing although I've no idea whats that. I just stuff it in my mouth lol. sorry lah i'm not a very good food blogger lol.

Step food blogger lor. what else hahaha. I just want my air con PLEASE.

 Too lazy to dress up so I just wear a plain black dress and denim vest to cover up the bare back. Trees,it reminds me of permanence. The last time I took a photo with a  tree.. the photographer asked if I was from CHINA. -_-''

OH I FOUND IT. Yeah the reason why we were are smiling so brightly.. it's because we all got mistaken for China tourists LOL. Ever since this photo,I'm really hesitant to take photos with trees LOL.

Bleah actually both of us are going through some tough issues recently and things are really hard for us but I know we both can pull through this shit. Sometimes it's really hard to breathe through it all but I'm glad I have the moral support of many friends.

Okay back to the cafe. We took a cab back to Clementi as well and we specially called a cab because we have no idea how to get out.So transport fee is not really worth it. Imagine like $10 transport fee(not including MRT) and the food is just average. But if you like horses or you got your own car to go then okay lor. But if not,i don't really recommend this cafe. (You can always see horses in the zoo)

Bye! Till next time then. Prolly don't have much time to update due to school and my life is pretty mundane recently.

And it almost seemed like someone is willing to put on plasters on those already healed scars but then maybe he's florence nightingale. Perhaps he do that to everyone but the weird thing is,he was so alike you. Someone tough on the exterior on the outside but soft on the inside.

''You'll be happy again,never fear. But you won't forget. Every time you fall in love it will be because something in the man reminds you of him.''

2nd Degree Ice Art Exhibition

Syafiqah and I had 18 chefs for lunch because I hadn't tried it before. The food was pretty good. Quite worth it as it's relatively cheap for a restaurant.I had student meal which only costs $6.40

Here's a close up of my cheese baked rice. I had Japanese Curry for the sauce and chicken sausages for the toppings.

I like how unique their cups are. It's like a jar. But their lemon tea tastes just like iced tea except they added a slice of lemon slice inside.

A scoop of chocolate chip ice cream! It was pretty good. I think I just love ice cream in general. Ice cream always makes me happy.

I actually ordered tickets online which costs $27(includes a free drink but not rental of jackets) but I found out that there were student price which is $20 per ticket and it includes rental of jackets. Luckily the online seller is understanding and allowed me to back out. Imagine I bought the $27 ticket and additional $5 for rental of jackets. That's $32 man.

It was really cold inside(no joke) and I had difficulty taking photos. Free gloves were included in the ticket. It was so hard to take photos with gloves and it's too cold to remove the gloves. I did that several times to take photos but I soon gave up because the cold bothered me. (get my joke??)

This is like a Buddha from Thailand? Everything felt so magical inside! So colorful and cold. It's like you're in a different world. I would totally love to visit more ice art exhibitions around the world. Provided my feet are warm. I was wearing flats and it was so cold for me. I wished I had worn socks and sneakers there.

Can you guess who is he? Hint: Founding father of Singapore

Yes,that's right! Sir Standford Raffles!

 

HEY BITCHES WELCOME TO MY KINGDOM!! No idea why this picture looked so bad here. It looked better in my phone and on Facebook.

Trying to be demure with my pose wtf.

 

Let me act cute while time still allows me to!

 One of my favorite shots!

Red riding hoods

LOL THIS BIMBO WORE SANDALS TO AN ICE ART EXHIBITION and her feet was really cold and we went out several times to gain warmth and the person in charge gave her an extra pair of gloves to wear as socks LOL.

Putting her lovely socks on. Gloves I mean.

Touristy shot

yay toilet ootd

Spot Chanel behind. This picture is branded guise. Next time I go tattoo my body Chanel also. Next time someone touch me accidentally I ask the person pay cause I am branded. LOL

The sky is so blue that day. I wonder why the sky is not this blue all the time.

Endi

The background look so photoshoped LOL.

Ending blogpost with a nice scenery pic. BYEBYE

100th day of 2014 thoughts

I was drafting up a blog post on my trip to the 2 degree ice art exhibition last night and I meant to complete and publish the blog post today but I don't have the mood to continue writing it. Perhaps tomorrow?

Today will be a rojak wordy blogpost because I hadn't done one in such a long time and I realized that I prefer reading wordy blogposts from friends which gives me insights on their personality or thoughts inside them rather them a photographic blog with photos of food,outfits and those mainstream posts.

I really wanna share some inside thoughts but I know there are some visitors here and I'm not ready to share intimate thoughts up here. ''Then you still type so much for what?!'' Errr.. Well,because I want to? I just feel that I've been posting too much superficial posts up here just to hide my true self and only show the better side of my life and it is not what this blog is for. I used to have a diary in a notebook form and I write my most inner thoughts inside and I've stopped doing that for quite some time because it requires too much effort and sometimes I forget about it.

Don't really have a specific topic to write about but just wanna talk about whatever that's on my mind. Sharing whatever that's on your mind without reservations,showing all of you,when was the last time you did that? It was easier to do that when you were younger,there were no defense because there were no trust issues and as you get older,sharing was hard. It was an activity you do with people you trust the most. People sometimes put words into your mouth and twist them around and I think this is why majority of the people would rather keep things to themselves. It was tiring to explain and justify the truth and even more tiring to make people see things from your point of view.

I don't know how people see me. I think most probably someone who is pretty sensitive and emotional,easily agitated and angered. Who would like to be seen that way? You know if I could choose my personality,I would choose to be a patient and cheerful introvert. Wouldn't it be nice if they sell vitamin pills that can change our personalities? Like you swallow this yellow pill that's pineapple flavored and then you will become cheerful. Why no one think of that ah?? I mean like people do so much things to alter their looks. For example,chin fillers to make face look sharper,boob jobs to make breasts bigger,double eyelids surgery,botox to remove wrinkles,lipo something to remove fats BUT WHY NO ONE INVENT pills to make personalities nicer? We could achieve so much as individuals and the world will be a much nicer place.

Have you guys ever reached a point in your life whereby you feel some friendships are.. I don't how to put it. Stagnant? Is it the correct word? It's like it feels tiring to continue the friendship and I felt wrong,bad,afraid. Because I am a person who put in a lots of effort in relationships because I don't like losing people. I really don't. And this is perhaps why I hadn't been in a relationship yet. I don't want to be too dependent on another individual and I am very well aware how losing people affects me. My entire normal mundane life will turned upside down and it will take me a very very very long time to recover.

Okay byebye. On a side note,today is the 100th day of 2014.