Changes are always my greatest weakness. Not just adapting to the physical environment,but mentally accepting people.This,is my greatest challenge.It's like I have a barrier. I was so used to having HuiSin around me,it feels so secure,like nothing in life can ever go wrong. I was so used to having Jiawen to be stupid with,judging people and making the must stupid remarks. I was so used to having YunXuan in my secondary school life because I can be myself,I can complain all I want and be my flawed version and still gets accepted and loved and I don't know who will like this flawed me and I don't know why I'm typing this long ass post but I need so much acceptance in my heart right now. I need courage. I always hated loneliness and it is one feeling that kills me. It sort of killed me in upper secondary and I am so afraid I won't fit in well and I don't know.
I need so much time to analyze one's character and it's so hard for me to trust people.
Goodbye. 习惯，时间，接受。Part and parcel of life huh?
Contrary to the picture,I am not a sophisticated person. I am a clumsy dwarf and my English is often ridiculed in real life. Thank god for internet.
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