Appreciation

We always thought our own problems are the greatest.Maybe we are too caught up with our own lives,too obsessed with ourselves sometimes to even ... care about what other problems people are facing. Because all these things didn't happen to us personally,we brushed them aside. But please bear in mind,it could be you in the future. Unfortunate things can happen to anyone,anytime.

In actual fact,a lot of things seemed like problems to me. I am a worry wart and I have very bad anxiety problems. Extremely small problems can be like a humongous bomb to me,ready to explode in my mind anytime,any moment.

I watched happy truck yesterday and I'm really in awe of those parents who didn't give up on their kids. It seemed so hard to have a normal life when your children isn't normal.You face judgement from the society,your child faces judgment from the society and maybe even despise. There's the finance part to think about and there's so much more to weigh on your mind every single day.

How do they do it?

Immense love for the child and courage I suppose. ''Sometimes it's really tiring.. It's more of the psychological part I think.'' One of the mothers choked out before bursting into tears. At that moment,I feel like crying with her but I didn't because my dad was making a joke about the celebrities pretending to cry...... But really lah,it's a little too exaggerated.

Today I was waiting for bus 812 to bring me to ChongPang and I heard this woman crying and talking loudly behind me. ''How dare you scold me? You scolded me?!I want to go home right now! I don't want to go for the operation! Do you know afraid I am? Do you know how much emotional trauma I've been through?I might just go in there and never come out!  I can't even sleep yesterday!'' she exclaimed in extreme anguish. I'm guessing that perhaps her daughter has spoken to her in a harsher tone and she wasn't too happy about it.

No adult in their right mind would cry loudly in public. There was just so much fear in her voice and it made my fear for microsoft access seems so stupid and small.

While I was waiting for a bus,she was waiting for hope. Hope to survive the operation and see her loved ones when she open her eyes again.

While I was battling with anxiety issues,she was battling with an unknown monster called death.

So therefore,I am lucky. You are lucky too.You are healthy and alive and breathing.

On a side note,I lost my ez-link card today and ... I feel so unlucky but it's probably due to my careless and blur personality. But I'm lucky,it's not my phone or IC that is missing! So thankful that BY and N accompanied me to search even though they can go home first. :D 

I know my blogposts hadn't exactly been interesting to read because it's like this naggy person who keeps preaching about life but yeah this is just a platform for me to view out things which no one really wants to listen in reality and so I just type out whatever I wanna tell someone here. It's just like talking to myself lah and I enjoy it because .... I love myself like that.

Have a good night sleep everyone! :)