Zimplicity;

I don't ever think I can ever fall in love with anyone. Maybe I can but I can't be in love.There is a difference between falling in love and being in love with someone.

When you fall in love,every single thing about that particular person becomes well,just mesmerizing.And you memorize and read him like a book. His likes and dislikes,his flaws,his everything. And maybe you wished there would be an encyclopedia about him so you could know everything you possibly about him.

But being in love,you have to love yourself first. You have to fall in love with your own fucking flaws.

And actually my train of thoughts isn't very clear right now so I'm not sure what I'm trying to say.Because I am the kind of person who would try to hide my own flaws and it gets horrendously tiring sometimes. Like I'm trapped somewhere.

Maybe I hadn't get over him. The guy I was obsessed for 3/4 of my secondary school life.

And the guy who knew me better than I know myself.

I wonder how I looked like in your perspective. Am I painfully shy? We are worlds apart and now I do get the meaning of personalities>looks.