Exams period are stressful but the depression level is lesser because you are too tensed,too nervous,too angst to be depressed about other issues that have been ongoing in your life. It pushes things away temporary and you live in that moment,you are present in that 2 weeks in life because there will be dire consequences if you continue living inside the bubble. When things get too heavy,you think about the freedom and solitude you get when everything is over. Changes you want. You start planning.
But it's not the case when everything ended. You feel even lonelier than before and sometimes it basically felt like no one really understand who you are. How do I.. even expect people to understand me when I don't even understand who I am and what I want? How to I expect not to be lonely when I'm constantly pushing people away because they drive me nuts with their endless demands and drama which tires me out?
Korean dramas,they make me feel less lonely but pathetic sometimes. Because it seems like things seemed so perfect for them and here I am. But of course,that's why drama exists. To bring you to fantasy and allow you to hide away from reality. Isn't it?
Contrary to the picture,I am not a sophisticated person. I am a clumsy dwarf and my English is often ridiculed in real life. Thank god for internet.
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