Lazy saturday today.
KFC for lunch with compliments from my aunt<3

Currently blogging on my brother's laptop.

Been thinking about the Japan's earthquake.
So many lives lost:(

I wanna travel around the world badly.

Front stage vs Back stage

So today was Parent-Teacher Meeting day,
but my parents didn't come as they aren't required.
I didn't even feel like waking up for today at all.
Woke up and slept again.

Must say I'm quite satisfied and shocked at my results.

English- C6
Higher Chinese- A2
A-maths- A2
Maths- A1
Science (Chemistry + Physics) - B4
Combined Humanities-(SS + History) - A1
Principles of Accounts -A1


C6. I feel very very very disappointed. It's the worst score I ever got for English in my entire life.I mean my entire school life. 53.3!!!!!!!! Holy crap! I nearly failed it!! I need to thank my English teacher,seriously.

I did pretty well for Chemistry but Physics pulled me down.I am very afraid I will fail Physics this year.

It's the best results I have ever gotten so far.. First time so many As and I received a ''well done'' from Mr Chin:D

LOL but the thing is,it's CA1 only and the reason I did well is because of daily assignments. -.-

But no matter how much effort I put in,no matter how well I do,they never sees it.

CCA at 1pm today.So after collecting my results, I went to eat breakfast with Heidi at Chongpang's McDonald.Walked around the whole ChongPang till 12 plus.Talked a lot about life and school and future.

She told me I was her backstage friend.
Because we're both in the same class for higher Chinese,there's this comprehension in a test we did before.. It's about how the front stage and the backstage is just like your life.The front stage is your proud glory,where you shines,your smiling face and it also portrays the best image of yourself.However,the backstage is where you get prepared,get all hot and bothered,a place where you rest,let your unhappiness out.

The backstage is a place that everyone needs to have.In order to perform your best,you need a backstage.Maybe I showed too much of my backstage at times.

CCA surprisingly was alright.
Sat with John on the way to ACJC.
ACJC was fucking cold!!
I mean it!I was shivering like mad and my knees trembled non-stop!!
My junior was like '' are you sure you alright?'' cause I was so cold to the extent that I can't move and I just sat against the wall.
Then after that,Shahira hugged me and I feel slightly warmer.
Also need to thank the jacket.
And there's this funny part where i was rubbing and clasping my hands together.. and Jinkheng was like'' eh,you praying to Mother Teresa ah?''
And he mimic me, Raj and I and himself laughed like mad..



That moment today warmed me.
But I do wondered whether I did something wrong.


This world is dyinggggggggggg.:-(

Sports Carnival today.
Got 45th in position LOL.
I was 54th in 2009.
After that,went to watch Big Momma;Like father,like son
It's hilarious and I loved the musical parts:)


Awkward moments. :(
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core.

I miss you and I don't know why.

Mixed feelings.
I tried to push it away,tried to reject him again and again but I failed.
Could my coach actually be correct?I'm escaping cause I don't want the stress and responsibility.
I really don't like adding stress to myself.Because I know how it feels like to break into tiny pieces.I don't like committing to things when I know I can't.What should I do? :(
Be brave and accept,bring myself loads of stress or be a coward and reject but stay happy?I am scared.Don't know which direction to take.

I hide in the toilet for a long time just now during school.

You see it as giving me a chance,a chance to step out,a chance to shine,a chance to change.
I see it as adding more stress,taking away my happiness.

Brendon was playing with my pony tail today,darn,i know I'm short okay.I WAS LIKE''NO EYES AHAHHAHA''.Then after that little episode with my coach,my mood gone all low and moody.No mood talk at all. ''Eh why you so emo.'' ''nothing lah.''

Obviously nothing.Cause if i continue talking i might cry.

Remembered last August?

Fuck scary.Don't want the same thing to happen.

Yes I am afraid of how people judge me.
Yes I am scared to ruin the entire thing.
Yes I don't like the words stress and responsibility.


Someone tell me what to do.

I love fashion photography.



I always get monday blues and I don't know why.
Term 1 is gonna be over soon.
7 more terms and I'll be done with high school.
Endure,endure.
Can't wait to go out with Syafiqah this sunday. <3


Nothing much to look forward to.
If I can survive 2010,I can survive 2011 as well.

I bet you don't know I am trying so hard to breathe.