Front stage vs Back stage

So today was Parent-Teacher Meeting day,
but my parents didn't come as they aren't required.
I didn't even feel like waking up for today at all.
Woke up and slept again.

Must say I'm quite satisfied and shocked at my results.

English- C6
Higher Chinese- A2
A-maths- A2
Maths- A1
Science (Chemistry + Physics) - B4
Combined Humanities-(SS + History) - A1
Principles of Accounts -A1


C6. I feel very very very disappointed. It's the worst score I ever got for English in my entire life.I mean my entire school life. 53.3!!!!!!!! Holy crap! I nearly failed it!! I need to thank my English teacher,seriously.

I did pretty well for Chemistry but Physics pulled me down.I am very afraid I will fail Physics this year.

It's the best results I have ever gotten so far.. First time so many As and I received a ''well done'' from Mr Chin:D

LOL but the thing is,it's CA1 only and the reason I did well is because of daily assignments. -.-

But no matter how much effort I put in,no matter how well I do,they never sees it.

CCA at 1pm today.So after collecting my results, I went to eat breakfast with Heidi at Chongpang's McDonald.Walked around the whole ChongPang till 12 plus.Talked a lot about life and school and future.

She told me I was her backstage friend.
Because we're both in the same class for higher Chinese,there's this comprehension in a test we did before.. It's about how the front stage and the backstage is just like your life.The front stage is your proud glory,where you shines,your smiling face and it also portrays the best image of yourself.However,the backstage is where you get prepared,get all hot and bothered,a place where you rest,let your unhappiness out.

The backstage is a place that everyone needs to have.In order to perform your best,you need a backstage.Maybe I showed too much of my backstage at times.

CCA surprisingly was alright.
Sat with John on the way to ACJC.
ACJC was fucking cold!!
I mean it!I was shivering like mad and my knees trembled non-stop!!
My junior was like '' are you sure you alright?'' cause I was so cold to the extent that I can't move and I just sat against the wall.
Then after that,Shahira hugged me and I feel slightly warmer.
Also need to thank the jacket.
And there's this funny part where i was rubbing and clasping my hands together.. and Jinkheng was like'' eh,you praying to Mother Teresa ah?''
And he mimic me, Raj and I and himself laughed like mad..



That moment today warmed me.
But I do wondered whether I did something wrong.


This world is dyinggggggggggg.:-(