Today is the last day of examinations!
Had emaths paper1.
Although everything has ended,I don't feel the satisfaction I had like last year,I only feel relief.
Cause I know I didn't work hard.And I have flunked Physics,Amaths and maybe Emaths..
When I say flunk,I mean it.F9 kind of a flunk.
Sigh,forget it.What done cannot be undone either.. Really dread the results.I think my parents will be so shocked and horrified by my horrendous results.
Went to PuayLin's house yesterday.. Memories of my sec one and two life makes me sad,really really sad.It makes me sad knowing I can never turn time back.No matter how BADLY I want 2e3 back,I can never have it back.3e2 is only a class for me to study in,I don't have much friends there,only acquaintances. 3e2 is a place which makes me feel hopeless in terms of studies. It don't give me the correct amount of stress.It stresses so much to the extent that I don't give motivated,only hopelessness.3e2 is a broken mirror... If you look inside the mirror,you will see your own face,but an ugly disfigured one. On the other hand,2e3 was always filled with laughter.I also kind of anticipated to going to classses,looking forward to the inside jokes and the malay boys' weird antics.It gives me the correct amount of stress,it was a motivating class,everyone encouraging each other.Even though most of the people there are kiasu,but it was the kind of attitude I like in class.We are puzzle pieces,fitted clearly to match each other.We are unique individuals, fit and bonded so well to form an art piece. I can't wait for the 2e3'10 gathering.
Anyway,I don't know if I should buy a keyboard.. I really want to learn how to play a musical instrument despite me lacking musical talents/being a complete professional at being the all rounder failure at music. I like how people use music to express their emotions.. I love how swiftly their fingers move across the keys,with sweet melody flowing out so easily.I like how different kind of emotions float across the air,I like watching how their body move according to the tunes.I like watching their heads bob up and down ,their body swaying so smoothly and peacefully.
It's $60 if I want to buy. Toni is offering it to me.Maybe I can bargain to $50.But I am afraid I'll give up easily,and its just a spur of a moment thing.My guitar is rotting in my storeroom. My aunt is actually a pianist but the thing is,she lives in Malaysia :/
The way I spend money is like TOTALLY BRAINLESS. I always spend money when I HAVE IT,spend on useless things.In the end no money go out.. =.= Here's my new Ipod cover.Cute right? Kinda symbolises friendship to me.
And a floral hairband to tie my hair.. Kinda got that soft vintage feminine feel. :)$2. Korean fashion got a lot.
That's it for today. Bye~~
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