Zimplicity;

Yes,it's Friday again.
Blogging day for me.
Slack day for me.
CCA day for me.

I realised there's a routine every single day of the week.
Monday - Oh gosh its Monday again.. Another tiring week
Tuesday- When will Friday ever come???
Wednesday-It's the middle of the week already.. I survived 3 days.
Thursday- I'll survive.. It's Friday tomorrow!!!
Friday- YAY IT'S FRIDAY!! Looking forward to the weekend.
Saturday- Relaxing,having fun..
Sunday-It's Monday soon again.

I don't know what I'm living for either.

I fell in love with stall 3's food. Yes,it's my third year in AISS and I only tried stall 3's food for the first time like a few days ago.It's like fucking good and the best thing is it's warm!!!!!!!!!!!!! How awesome is that?

And they are leaving next term. So i had my meal from stall 3 for the last time.. Ughhh.

CCA recently seems like a great way for me to distress.During CCA,my troubles are somehow temporary forgotten.I can be really crazy and no one cares and not get judged for it.

I'm really scared to retain.
I don't want to.

People out there don't understand,they keep telling me you won't. you won't you won't.
They don't understand.
Gary Lee's words scare me so much on Thursday that I burst into tears during recess,I'm just trying to control myself during Chemistry.

Fail three subjects and you'll retain.
I have 99.9% of failing Amaths unless a miracle happens.
I have some chance of failing Emaths.
I have 90% chance of failing combined science.

No I didn't study or revise at home.
I don't pay attention during class and I copy homework most of the time when it comes to maths and science and I don't even give a shit about Amaths cause I'm too tired and lazy to.

I don't even think I can get A1 or A2 for o level Chinese,I screwed up the oral.

And wanna know the best part?I flunked English and Chemistry and Amaths for CA2.
English!! I actually flunked English for the first time in my life,this is an absolute disgrace.

So what I got top for History? SO WHAT?

People telling me to be positive about life,I feel so tired of hearing that at times.

10 points required for Psychology.

Its seems like a dream far away and I really don't know how I'm going to take that course.I'm barely surviving,barely making it to secondary 4.

Today,my drama coach asked me: '' Are you okay?'' I can't bring myself to tell him no.I smiled instead. He asked me many times. Maybe up to three. I finally said,No,I'm not. ''

I really wished someone would save me from all these mess,tell me what to do.


My concentration level is really low.
I can't deal with my emotions anymore.
I just want to run away from life really.
I'm sick of bursting in tears in school for no apparent reasons.
I'm sick of those people.
I'm sick of being tired and sick of life.
I'm sick of wanting to be happy.
I'm sick of all this shit really.