Zimplicity;

I know I'm suppose to update about my fifteen but I think I'll do a more decent post about it next time.Update the more ''emo'' one first.


24 October was perhaps an official date to let go.A conversation which verified all my assumptions.I knew you liked her,but I didn't know she liked you back.My heart sank till it can't sank any further that day.I didn't cry,or shed a tear at all that day.I have never really shed tears for anyone in my entire life before so no surprise I guess.This is why PuayLin call me cold-blooded.

It's not pain enough to make me cry.The surprise was not hurtful enough because I already knew things were impossible and it's pointless holding on to something which you know can never be yours.

Things are finally coming to an end,they said it's time to let go too.Pack up these 2 years of feelings.Or nearly 2 years.If there's a memory chip in my brain of you,I will be damn glad to remove it.So many memories implanted. That feeling I get when I see you,I must remove it.That feeling I get when someone mentioned you,I must remove it.Removing a kind of feeling which you are used to.

Read Jiawen's blog and it made me realise I've been such a bad friend. I never truly listened to her problems.It's always her solving my problems,comforting me. All my complicated relationship problems,my anxiety problems,my depression problems,my a lotalot of problems,amaths problems LOL and so many more.I get annoyed with her very easily but then she barely gets angry.It's always me and me and me.I'm never really there for her.Oh god,felt like the most horrible friend on earth sometimes.

Anyway,it's time to say goodbye.A huge stone lifted after sticking there for a very very long time.Sure it aches,but maybe time can heal it. Maybe.

Cause I'm not as good as her.