That 1 crucial mark

So.. another round of results. Another round of fear,another round of disappointment,another round of excitement and happiness for some people.

It was a huge surprise for English, I guess I did average even though I was once again disappointed by the comprehension marks. After calculation,I got 69.333333 for English! I was really like surprised as it's really been ages since I got such awesome results for English.Usually it's a number starting with 5.1 more mark to A2 and I hope they can round it off! I had doubts about this result actually. But I think the main reason why I did fairly well was due to oral. I got 34/40 :))) Thank you so much Mrs Tay! I know you feel guilty that I got f9 for Geography in 2009 but it's alright,really,I enjoy history lessons a lot.

As for History.. I was telling Heidi, :'' Scarly suay suay 37. " I need a 38 to get A1 for combined humanities.And I was like FUCKKKKKK. when I saw my marks. It was indeed 37, I wonder if it's law of attraction. I tried asking 1 more mark from Ms Zhang but for the 'why' question,even though my format is correct but my inference is wrong.Actually I already know,i might get that question wrong cause COMMUNISTS AND NAZIS ARE ENEMIES and I wrote that the communist intention is to praise Hitler is a good leader. Smart or what?-_-

As for Chemistry,I am speechless and expecting this. I got 26/70. f9

Physics,ZhiHui was right, I passed on the dot.And then... '' Class,there's an error in the MCQ and those who put A as answer must deduct 1 mark.'' So I FAILED PHYSICS IN THE END TOO :<

Time for Emaths. Was fucking fucking fucking disappointing. Fucking disappointing. I felt a sense of satisfaction when I do finish paper 1. And in the end paper 1 was what crashes me the most. 42/80 . A big slap on my face. A heavy stone just thrown against my heart and it felt like someone was laughing. That person was me. Too complacent. Careless mistakes. 10 marks gone. I should be getting 52,not 42. What's this? Ling? What's this? Paper 2 wasn't any better. 53/100 I think.

I really don't know if I can be promoted to sec 4 even though many people are giving me assurance I can. Stop saying things like just work harder:) It's so annoying.You're not the one who got two Fs in your results. You're not the one who almost got the lowest in the level for combined science,you don't know how demoralising it feels.You don't know that cold feeling you get in your heart when you get crushed by disappointment so badly.

Even if I can be promoted,I'm not even sure I'm ready for sec 4. I'm barely scraping through.

English- B3 ( 0.7 MARK TO A2 :<)
Maths- 50.something c5
Amaths- 35 F9
Combined Science - F9
POA- C5
Higher Chinese- B3
Combined Humanites- A2 (fml, 1 more mark to A1) :<

See my L1r5 , 27 already. 23<27

Lost all faith