Some random updates

Went to have dim sum at Swee Choon Tim Sum Restaurant with my friends after exams 1 week plus ago.. I love the food there! Yummy and affordable! We ate a lot and only paid roughly $11 per person! You definitely can't find this price at shopping malls. I love the egg tarts and the har kao(prawn dumplings)! The tofu(second column first pic) was also great! The skin was crispy on the outside and kinda dissolve in your mouth.My friends loved the chee cheong fan too! They loved it so much they order it again after finishing the first round! Majority of the food are in this collage.. I'm way too lazy to post individually.

It is opened from 6pm-6am everyday with the exception of Tuesday which is their off day.

Address:183/185/187/189/191 Jalan Besar,S208882
Nearest MRT station : Farrer Park

It is about 5-10 minutes walk from the MRT station. But you must find correct exit lah. Me and my friends spent quite some time searching because we went to a wrong route haahha.

Also went K-suites to sing with my sing songs kakis recently. Fluffy didn't go this time round because she had sore throat. It's quite cheap for students,only $12 for 3 hours per person. The website is in the photo so if you're interested,go to the website and find out more yourself. :P

Ok I know my face cui but this is the only group shot I have.

Camwhore shot LOL

Anyway.. Something really creepy happened at first. The first room we got was really dark and Venessa and me didn't like the fact it was so dark so we got the person to adjust it but it was.. spoil. The room was quite big as compared to the one we had the last time we came. And then.... I noticed BLOOD STAINS on the sofa. Don't know if is people menses then leak or... murder case. When the person came in with our drinks,we requested a a change of rooms. Too creep-ed out.

Nevertheless,I had an enjoyable time singing. :D It's really great for distressing but I would recommend those who are afraid of the cold to bring a thick jacket as it can get really chilly.

I also went to Wheeler's yard recently. Huixian's friend JJ brought us there. Blue OOTD with blue background hohoho. I've seen some photos on Instagram and it's like a themed cafe which used to be a bicycle warehouse (I think.. Sorry I'm not good at remembering information)

Our food. Not including Fluffy's because she was really hungry and started attacking her food when her food came. But she ordered the same thing as me except hers were sunny sides up.

There are some magazines on the table for you to browse through after you finish eating and there's bicycles display on the table and outside the cafes. Very interesting concept.

 

So here's a shot of my food. It is.... very disappointing I would say. But usually cafes all like that,from interior design to food all very aesthetically pleasing but actually it's not tasty and a bit overrated. Erm anyway the bread is just like normal bread lor. I at home also can make. Scramble eggs also normal,Mcdonald big breakfast also have. Hashbrown my school yong tau foo stall also got sell.Sausages.. didn't really like this kind so I gave one to Fluffy since she's still hungry after the meal. The bacon is like cardboard dipped in salt. The worst is the salad. I feel like I'm putting leaves in my mouth and I feel like an animal. A rabbit. 

 I like the old school graphic design on the bottle. It tasted really unique and it's like a mix of Vanilla and orange and coke. HuiXian said it tasted like medicine. I didn't really realize that at first but I still like the taste of it nonetheless. I didn't order any coffee because I feel that I need a thirst quenching drink. Coffee would make me feel full. 

 Here's a group shot! I asked everyone to wear blue hehehe. I'm the shortest among the 4 of us. -_-
Anyway the address is on the photo. The nearest MRT is Toa Payoh but we walked really long. I was sweating and all by the time I reached.

 

I was whining for icecream so we headed to Novena but Udders was full so we went for yoghurt instead. 

 

Frozen yoghurt with fruity pebbles cereal is like the best thing ever. So pretty and yummy. *.*

Photo is blur. I think I didn't focus well. That's Fluffy's yoghurt on the right. YUMMMM

Garlic prawns pancakes at strictly pancakes! The last time I came with Saras was like one year ago,I ordered potato leeking cheese and it wasn't even Instagram worthy or taste nice..

Cutie Chan with her pancakes.

Honey/rum&raisin butter/garlic herb butter to go with the pancakes

We shared strawberry milkshake and it was quite good considering they used real strawberries in it. But we couldn't finish this drink and the pancakes in the end.. Was too much for us. -_-

 

I like to take pictures of food and with food.. so here's a shot. Wah actually I only 17 (turning 18 in a few months) but sometimes I feel that my face look damn old. urghh I'm still young okay don't do this to me.. Anyway I dyed my hair recently and my hair dresser choose the colour for me... AGAIN. Somehow she always managed to convince me to do colors she want because I'm not confident to pick my own colors. It's ash brown with green base but its not obvious in photos at all. Damn sad urgh. 

Anyway,we went to the second storey of the cafe and it was hell noisy. It was so cramped to the extent I feel as though we were eating with other strangers. The 2 Indian ladies beside me were damn annoying and they were gossiping about people. The 2 Chinese on the right were catching up and then in the later part they were talking about bungee jumping. See? I even know what they are talking about. Heidi and me spent the meal mostly in silence wtf. 

 

Forever no nice shots of us. -.-'' Never mind selfies are good enough. Cheers to our friendship of 5 years plus! We were friends in lower sec but not really that close. Upper sec then closer. Same class throughout all 4 years in secondary school and we had the exact same combination. Combined Chemistry with Physics and POA and history elective hahaha. Moan about Amaths together every time.

Actually all these I update in Dayre already but I update again here because I don't want this blog to die. That's the problem with technology. So many social media till you don't know where to update. And I'm updating because I have nothing to do and I don't wanna watch the last episode of You who came from the stars because I wanna save it for the night time. More feel. LOLOLOL. 

Okay till next time. I update all in one go very tiring leh. HAHAHA ok bye

''Humans live so hard knowing they will eventually die. We know that we will part ways one day yet we still love like there is no tomorrow.'' - You who came from the stars

And no matter how much I want to understand you,I can't seem to. You locked your world.. way too well.

Exams period are stressful but the depression level is lesser because you are too tensed,too nervous,too angst to be depressed about other issues that have been ongoing in your life. It pushes things away temporary and you live in that moment,you are present in that 2 weeks in life because there will be dire  consequences if you continue living inside the bubble. When things get too heavy,you think about the freedom and solitude you get when everything is over. Changes you want. You start planning.

But it's not the case when everything ended. You feel even lonelier than before and sometimes it basically felt like no one really understand who you are. How do I.. even expect people to understand me when I don't even understand who I am and what I want? How to I expect not to be lonely when I'm constantly pushing people away because they drive me nuts with their endless demands and drama which tires me out?

Korean dramas,they make me feel less lonely but pathetic sometimes. Because it seems like things seemed so perfect for them and here I am. But of course,that's why drama exists. To bring you to fantasy and allow you to hide away from reality. Isn't it?

Little snippets of my life

I hadn't really bothered updating here. Dayre is so much more convenient but at the same time I hadn't really have the heart to delete this blog so I'm kind of trying to keep it alive for people who still read this space.

Right now it's 4 minutes to 12am and I'm taking my macroeconomics paper on Tuesday and I only revised 5 lectures today because I'm too restless and lazy today. Feel so worn out after two papers already. Just gotta survive for 3 more papers. :(

You probably saw them on Instagram or Dayre but whatever okay? Just see again lor. HAHAHA.

With my favorite cousin during Chinese New Year this year. The next time I'll see her is probably next year.

Note how I'm the only one wearing green while the rest wear blue? The color coordination was totally unplanned. My dress was supposed to be blue but the dress was spoilt and I changed it for a green one. If not can be matchy-matchy with the rest. :( Anyway this was taken when we went for steamboat during CNY period.

We had pork ribs soup and hot spicy soup as the base.

JianXing eating the chicken claws. Usually he really TALKS a lot but that day he really non-stop chewing and biting the food and it was unusually quiet and we teased him. '' wah usually you talk so much and there's endless chatter,today so quiet huh? *inserts smirk* Oh and I tried chicken claws and it's not that bad. It's actually yummy but a lot of bones which is irritating.

I can't wait for the next time we go out but it's probably going to be during June or maybe.. worst still,after PuayLin and JianXing's A levels and YunXuan's promos. Boohoo I'm the only one in poly now.

Oh we had a mini-celebration on the last day of year 1.

 

Our favorites from Dominoes. The pizza on top is da sex. The one beside the onion rings. Not the one near the phone. 

Here's a group picture of all of us.The one with the peace sign is Ah Young and she's Korean. We got to know her during the first semester for a module called Effective Writing Skills.It's was sort of like a farewell party for her because she's going back Korea for good to complete her university education.

 I can't imagine life without them next semester. Why must we split classes according to our specializations? Everyone picked hotel except for Huixian,Fatin and me. I'm not sure if I can get into resort as well but whatever lah. Get into MICE also not that bad. Hotel jiu hotel lor.

It took me a good 20 minutes to write this post but I think you all finish within 1/2 minutes right! 

Anyway I hope all my friends in JC(Liying,Saif,PuayLin,JianXing,JiaYing,Jiawen,HuiSin,SuanKheng) all do well for their A levels! Yeap a huge bunch of my friends are taking national exams this year!  I also hope Priya,Raj and YunXuan will do well for their Promos. And JinKheng and Quanen to survive army life! Oh and also Farah to do well for her O levels and Shahira 3rd year in poly to go smoothly! Okay that's about it I don't think I missed out anyone byebye!!

'' I asked some of my girl friends to be my Valentine and some of their reactions were really hilarious.''

*gives some examples*

''eh oh yeah.''
''will you be my valentine?''

LOL go fuck yourself or something. Last time you were embarrassed I rejected you so you make it sound like you aren't asking me for a date and this time round you tried to 给自己下台的机会 again. What the shit. What did I exactly see in him last April???!!!

I told Jun Yang about it and he was like if I accept,he will fuck me in my nose till I bleed. HAHAHA funny lah him. Go army humor level still very high,not bad.

Anyway the funniest thing is that a primary school friend,a super ''nerdy'' and intellectual one (she's in god damn Raffles Institution) got attached I think. I found out through Instagram. Bless social networks. And I told JX and some primary school friends about it and we were like '' wtf fml what are we doing with our lives'' reactions.

OH AND i saw this woman with her legs spread out on a man when I was in the mrt and they were at a park on a bench wtf.

This V day has gotta be the funniest.

Anyway Happy V Day to everyone/ LOL actually I don't feel anything! Aiya there's no need to be emotional over having a partner or not! All is well as long as you're healthy! HOHOHO

I have removed my blog link from my social media sites for sometime already because I don't want people I'm not close with to read this private space of mine because sometimes other than releasing my emotions on the internet,i have no other means to do so.

I've stopped crying as I am typing this. I always believed and hope things will get better but I hate this phase of my life so much. It feels like everything is standing still and life will remain stinky and stagnant forever.

I go to school and come back home a different person. In school,I say ridiculous things and make people laugh. Sometimes I go all quiet and refuse to talk,participating in conversations only when I feel like it. I try my best to pay attention in class because everyone around me is so conscientious and I don't want to lose out. But then I know I have no motivation and what I'm doing is pretending. Pretending like how I always did in upper sec. Pretending and hoping maybe I will be motivated too. Sometimes in my mind all I wanted to do is to just go home and lie down on my bed and think about nothing.

When school ends,I go home and nap. That is my proper sleep time because I feel be so fucking tired I can't think of anything. And then use my phone and use and use and use and use. Sometimes I do my tutorial. And I continue using my phone till 1 am or 2am. Because I can't sleep with so many things weighing down on my mind.

I wonder if anyone know how it feels to shrivel and feel your soul dying away.

“What doesn’t kill you
leaves scars
ruins your lungs
dries out all your tears
leaves you lying awake at 4 in the morning
wishing you weren’t alive.”

—

C.C

Don't tell me stupid things to cheer up or some bull-crap after reading this. You don't know things I've been through so just mind your own business and leave me alone. I know very well I am not a very rationale person and I use a lot of my emotions to handle things. I am still in the midst of changing that and I don't need anyone to tell me so.

How is it
 you'll lose something
you never had?

Maybe all I had
was memories I made up.

A mix between
reality and fantasy
becoming
blurred lines

Till reality consumed
me in my dreams
and i woke up

step lang leav hahahah