Little surges of happiness

My apologies for not updating,it's kinda pointless anyway,considering the fact people seldom tag my blog.

Anyway,I went to Saif's birthday celebration today.It was kinda awkward at first as his secondary school friends were there too.It's like we are separated into two groups at first.His secondary school friends in one group and Fouzy,LiYing and me in another.After a while,his friends went down while Fouzy,LiYing and me begin to eat.

Saif came up and told us that his friends said we were weird and anti-social.Cause we kinda keep to ourselves.Like hello?You expect us to start the conversation first?And you guys also never start any conversations with us.So we decided to show how we socialise and how friendly we were.We prepared water bombs and sneaked up.And.... WE THREW IT AT THEM WHAHAHAA.
Enough of words,let the pictures do the talking now.I forgot to take a photo of his birthday cake but its chocolate.It's kinda too sweet for my liking.
From left to right, LiYing-Fouzy-Me-Saif.
Vetina had CCA and did not turn up at that moment.
Group photo of everyone.Left side primary school.Right side secondary school.We went to Northpoint after that.One of the photos taken in KFC.They look emo LOL. Perfect timing or what? Side profile view of Miss Vetina Lin.I love this kind of cheese. It's awesome dipping your french fries or popcorn chicken into it.I'll never get sick of it.I didn't know you could buy 1 small tub of it for $1 at KFC.I'm so gonna buy it next time!
I'm the shortest.See LiYing bend down to match my height? -.-
Sometimes I wished I was taller.I would be really really happy if I can grow up to 160cm.For your information,I'm 155cm now.Yes,SHORT.

I don't like my face in this photo.My nose is too triangularish and my teeth isn't white and straight enough like those in dental adverts.My face is an unhealthy glow and my bangs are kinda screwed up.My eyes are too small like typical Chinese. I sound like a stupid bimbo who can't stop complaining about my facial features,I know.But this is me since primary school.I can't stand myself sometimes too.
I haven't felt this happy for ages.This simple happiness.My usual days this year are embraced with emptiness,loneliness,insecurities,fears.

I get insecure easily.Insecure about my looks,insecure about my friendships with other people,insecure about my studies,insecure about this and that.I get jealous easily too.I'm not afraid to reveal my flaws here,cause that's who I am.There's no use hiding your flaws because no matter how you hide it from people,you can't hide it from yourself.
I borrowed this book from Manisha. I watched this movie last year but the experience of reading it and watching the movie is totally different.I think I am going to save up for this book,would totally love to own it.It gives me insights about life and made me realize little things about life.

Shall stop rambling now.It's 12.25am already.