Nostalgia overwhelmation

It's Friday again. I usually like Fridays because it's the weekend next.

Today i seemed so hyper and happy and crazy.Talked loads of crap.Sometimes I really don't know,that's the real me or not.Was it a mask,a false pretend or was it way to distract myself,a way to keep myself from feeling moody and emotional?

I actually listened and understood Physics today,so proud of myself but I think I kinda screw up Emaths test.Must start to buck up for studies,I cannot afford to retain. Retaining,it makes me very scared.I meant it.Imagine being in the same class with classmates younger than you and not knowing anybody..

Anyway,I screwed up my O level mother tongue oral.. I was like fucking nervous at the seat,practising for the passage,I can't even concentrate properly.And guess what,my old problem was back and I teared. I have damn sensitive eyes -.- Then I asked the teacher for tissue and she thought I too nervous and cry.LOL. She's super friendly and her smile very nice. It feels so genuine HAHA.Topic was densely populated situation in Singapore,I totally screw it up. I think I did okay for the passage but the conversation seriously cannot make it. My sentence structure was fucking weird and my language not expressive enough! Worst thing is,one of the examiners is from China I think,he's quite friendly and got smile.

Him:What are some methods to prevent this from happening?(Refering to overcrowding.)
Me: Employ more teachers and bus drivers...
Him:Anything to add on?
Me:Government not permitting so much foreigners into Singapore.

-.- Fuck. That guy from China I like that say,I wonder if I will offend him.And the other examiner damn stuck-up and arrogant lor,he looks fierce and don't even smile.. :(

There's fuck loads of homework to be done and tests for practically every single subject except for English and Combined Humanities. There's LEO CLUB I & I skit on 23 July, O level listening comprehension this Tuesday and I'm going to be the helper for some Maths and Science fair.LOL.

And I wonder if I should join back tuition seriously.If because of laziness,I fail emaths and amaths,i think i can go kill myself already.

Tomorrow need to meet up with Mr Ang also and I don't know what I would be doing,but I would be meeting up with JinKheng first.Have lunch with him first or something.

Every Friday,on the way walking to the bustop near AISS's back gate,I always get reminded of them.We would walk home in one big group,laughing and talking.I miss that.I walk alone now with my ear piece in my ear.

Zhi Ling is a brave and determined girl. LULZ.Bye,I shall go watch ah di now. :D