Zimplicity;

Today was considered pretty good,I guess.Mr Matins didn't come,so no Physics lesson for the first period.Well,I'm supposed to be really elated and omg-so-happy but I'm not.As most of you know,i HATE Physics to the core,even more than I hate Amaths. But I'm a really good and obedient girl , * coughs*, I studied Physics at night till 12 last night! Okay lah,I only start from 10 plus.. LOL
Cause I only have mood to study at night.

English was a total boredom and I hate the trainee teacher's voice.It's like torturing my ears seriously.She's straining her voice so hard,I know she wants to be loud but she should learn how to project her voice.It's like her voice is coming out from her throat and she's forcing herself to be loud.PFFFFT. I keep making that '' WTF SOMEONE KILL ME PLEASE'' face when she's talking near me.

BRB shall go bathe before continue-ing to blog.

Yeah I'm back.CCA was okay,but it feels weird without the sec 4 seniors. It feels empty. It doesn't even feel like the ODDS I once know.I miss Shahira teasing me,calling me bitch.I miss JinKheng's long speeches.I miss Toni Weida Brendon George Vaithesis Manisha and everyone.I miss the dirty jokes.I miss the noisy drama.I guess what I really miss was the pampering,the attention.I miss feeling, I don't know,important.I miss us going home together.I miss those chats.

And I never thought I'll miss them so much.Especially those few. I used to hate going for CCA,mind you.I never really had any close friends there,till Shahira,Jinkheng made me feel like I'm something,like I'm important.They never made me feel like I'm an outsider.

Today seems extremely weird,going home alone.But I think i bonded well with certain sec ones:) As for them,even though I'm irritated with them sometimes but I guess I'll just accept it. I had smiles all day long but the turth is my heart is aching badly inside.I'm back to square one.

I'll be a brave girl.I'll study.I'll make sure I get good grades for o levels.I'll make sure not to let the same mistake in 2008 happen again.I'll be my own hero.I'll be my own best friend.

They say,ultimately I'll find myself back,I'll find me back. And I do hope so.