happy 2014 to all

Reading my old blog posts,I feel like I have seen myself grow as a person. There are certain things I could have handled better,for example relationships and my attitude towards studies. I was so unhappy back then and even though the environment is less stressful,I felt like I was competing and struggling so badly.2012 was horrendous as I spent way too much time thinking about my future and what could have beens and yeap,I went to the wrong route eventually and I gave up. I was so worn out from everything and I just decided to deal with whatever shit that comes my way.

Given a chance to go back,I would definitely tell myself not to stress over O levels. Yes,it is a national exam. Yes,it ought to be taken seriously but making your mental health go haywire is definitely not worth it. I felt like a zombie going to school and each day I wake up,wanting the day to end. I didn't really study a lot to be truthful and I deserved the points I've gotten I think.

I'm lazy to blog and there's only 6 minutes left so I shall copy and past my FB status here,

We often looked back on past years and hoped for the years to come to be a better one.We said,''Be good to me,201X.'' But most of the times we want to year to pass quickly and lament that current year was a bad one.

I've spent half of 2013 or more than half of 2013 on vacations and it almost felt surreal that 2013 is coming to an end. 2013 taught me so much and I'm genuinely grateful for the new people I've gotten to know this year and thankful that my old friends are still in my life.(You know who you are)

I've made special effort to reconnect with old friends this year because I feel that there has got to be someone taking initiatives to catch up,to reminisce old times and embrace past moments.

'' My new classmates/friends has taught me that warmth can still exist in a group of people and it is possible to share,to be kind to each other as classmates. I never really gotten to experience that in 2012.

I felt so much happier in 2013 than in 2012 which was suffocating.I felt more like myself and I got to do things I wanted although it may seem reckless at times.

Apologize to people if you have to,talk to people if it helps you to sleep better at night. Let go of things that makes you unhappy because you are in charge of your own life. Bear less grudges and forgive those who had hurt you because remember there is such thing call karma. Enjoy the last day of 2013 and may 2014 be better for everyone! Cheers to a new year ahead! ''


Thank you Vetina LiYing Syafiqah Saif for being there to watch me grow up. May our friendship continue till we get dentures and all wrinkly.
Thank you Yunxuan JianXing Puaylin Jiawen Heidi for being the best thing that ever happened to me in secondary school
You guys are very special to me!!

For anyone reading this feeling lost and confused,we will always be lost and confused in life,whether you like it or not but someday things will eventually get better. Because if it's not better,it's the end yet. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.

And thank you,for helping me let go of what I ought to long ago