Thoughts of 2014

So I started Z-implicity in 2011 and this will be my 4th year on z-implicity and my 6th year blogging apparently. Been blogging lesser and lesser as I grow older. Bloggers I have been following are all married and some even have kids already! Xiaxue and Audrey for example. Dash and Fighter are super cute! Even Cheesie is pregnant.

I love reading people's blogs because it's really where you can learn more about people and their lives. Even useless knick-knacks about them. Recently on Dayre,found out Qiuqiu's sister went through family abuse before but so glad everything is good for her now. And yeah,discovered a new blogger call Suet Li through Audrey's blog and I pretty like her! So passionate towards teaching. Oh and also a doctor to be on Dayre,she's Malaysian and she's damn friendly I think. Offer to send me tea leaves hahaha.

HAHHA and I'm embarrassed to say this but I thought Malaysians' English aren't as good as Singaporeans but after reading some Malaysian bloggers' blogs,I totally changed my mind about that. Their command of English is really impressed me.

Anyway,I foresee that 2014 will be a pretty boring year for me as compared to 2013. 2013 was so so so happening with all the meet ups and stuff. 2014 will be much for quieter with some of my friends going to army(JinKheng,Kaihin,Junyang and Quanen) ;_; whatsapp will be so much quieter without these people to disturb. And.. Jiawen,Jiaying,PuayLin and JianXing will be taking their A levels this year.

Actually I can't believe I will be turning 18 this year. Although I'm still a teenager but it frightens me so much that I will become an adult sooner or later. Goals in life,financial burdens,passion. I don't even want to think about it. lol forever avoiding things.

Bleah I don't think I will be playing this coming holidays. I would be working and saving towards Bangkok trip. I always wanted to go there. Still hadn't find friends to go with but never mind,in the case that  my plan fail,just buy myself a branded bag as condolence. 

Oh yeah recently also attended a friend's mum funeral. My first time attending a funeral on my own. Make me realize how fragile life is. Well life being fragile has always been a known fact,just that a funeral makes it even more real.

And I'm very confused about some stuff and I don't know how to get the answers because only I will know the answers. I remember telling myself I would chase after it but maybe it is best to have a numb and boring life than hurting people because of selfish desires and unsure feelings. Right now 2014 being peaceful and smooth is maybe what I need.

I realized every start of the year,I am more emotional than I am in other months of the years. Feelings of doubts and uncertainty consumes me so much. It will go away sooner or later hopefully. It's now 12 midnight and I have to go back to school for a makeup lesson tomorrow. Goodnight.